I wish I could talk to him one last time. To be able to tell him things from my perspective and tell him that I was always there for him, and ask why he left me when I was at my lowest.
Unfortunately I can't, since he doesn't want anything to do with me since I fucked it up. (His words)
I don't know what to do. I know I ruined things but he hasn't seen this situation from my perspective, not like it would change anything anyways.
I guess I'm just bitter that he seems happier now and I'm just getting worse. I'm so childish it's stupid.
