I left Jonas's house crying. It's the worst I've ever felt. I don't know why I would ever do anything like that. I could almost feel the earth spinning, the gravity of the earth, I could feel it. I laid down on the ground in front of a house that's for sale and I watched the sky and the clouds going by. I felt terrified. Nothing felt real anymore, I didn't have any connection to anything at all. It was as if the nerves in my body were turned off and my brain was dead. I felt terrible. In that moment I was so mentally exhausted that I passed out on that grass.
I woke up later that day because of someone tapping on my shoulder. I opened them and there was a man dressed nicely with two other people who were dressed more casually.
"Hi, sorry to disturb you, but you can't sleep here."
"Sorry," I spit out. I then quickly left. I then called Tommie. He picked up after a few rings.
"Tommie?" I said in a wavering voice.
"Yeah? You ok?" Tommie asked.
"I'm not doing ok. I need you to pick me up please."
"Where are you?"
"Near Jonas' house."
"Did he do something to you?"
"No," I said. "I did something to him."
