All the Tears you left on me

Chapter 9

Ladybug

It's impossible, the boy that I always loved is Adrien Agreste ? And Cat Noir at the same time ?
No.
No.
No.

— you can't be...
— do you know me in real life ?

I didn't feel myself well, I was about to have an anxiety attack. This day is definely not my day.

— you're not him, I don't believe you.
— claws in.

I carried my hand to my mouth.
It was him.

— Ladybug, I don't care about these secret identity things now, I mean you need to know why I am so mean to you, you don't have to tell me yours I just want you to understand why I blame you.

I wasn't able to talk.

— I love you Ladybug, you're my woman like I said in the letter, I have feelings for you but I can't betray my father Ladybug, I just can't, even if he wasn't a good one I only had him.

I was frozen in the moment.

— my Lady say something.
— I need to go.

Shock after shock I couldn't take it anymore.
I left without looking back.

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Marinette

— Tikki I can't believe, Adrien is Cat Noir.
— Marinette stop crying you've been doing this for hours.
— Tikki... should I cry for what ? my mother ? the baby that I've lost ? Adrien being Cat Noir ?
— you don't have to cry Marinette please, just sleep everything will be okay.

I listened my kwami but I knew that nothing will be okay tomorrow.
Nothing at all.
All of this make me want to die.

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TW: Explicit talk
One week later

Cat Noir

Time passed but nothing improved.
I was fighting a villain like almost every day with Ladybug.

Nothing changed on that, except her vision of me.
To be honest I understand her but...
I miss her, I miss my Lady.

I know that I took a big risk for revealing my secret identity to her but I couldn't bare anymore.
At least she knows now.

After the fight I tried to talk.

— Ladybug.
— yes ?
— can we talk ?
— I'm sorry I have things to do now.

I grabbed her wrist.

— how long are you planning to avoid me ?
— Adrien I...
— no.

I placed her hand on my heart.

— don't see me as Adrien Ladybug, don't even call me like that.

I wanted her to understand me, cause I didn't do this for nothing.

— I'm not Adrien in reality... the way I act, the way I am it's just not me... my father wanted me to be perfect I just followed his wish.