Lust.

We always texted about what would happen... When we met... About how he would be the one to take my virginity, and he would always talk about how he is going to 'take care of me.' I met him through friends, and I added him on some social media, eventually leading to me getting his number. After speaking for nearly 3 months, without us ever meeting face to face, I feel I can't hold back any longer... My lust for him is overpowering. His eyes, his dimples, his smile, his body, his personality... He's caring, funny&adorable, but he has the dirty mindedness when its needed. We speak over a headset on PS4 most days, but some days we just text, his voice makes me so happy... When he makes his little dirty jokes, then giggles to himself because I'm left speechless. I love it. Despite all this, I feel he only wants one thing from me... sex. Thats not what I want, I want it all. The relationship, Not just to be his little fuck buddy. I have mentioned this to him. I'm quite forward about the way I feel, when something isn't right, I will tell him, so he can fix it, and he did say he doesn't just want sex, and he wants me, all of me... But you know, some guys think with their dicks... Well... Most guys do. So he could easily just be telling me what he knows I want to hear, in order to get what he wants. I honestly don't know. I plan on meeting him for the first time ever, in 2 days... Im so scared, I don't know if he is going to be expecting me to do stuff straight away or not. Ive never done anything with a guy besides kiss... I have came close to doing things but never actually done it, so he would be the first, thats what is making me so nervous.