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Rainy love.

The guilt of being in love, my mom trusting me so much and I happily breaking that trust, the fact that Karthik trusted that we might have a chance in future, when I was not sure if things would turn out well, the guilt of allowing him to fall for me...I was at fault no one else..ugh!! why am I ruining people's life and who am I to do so?

I felt lonely all of a sudden, I didn't know who to talk this to, Sneha was busy with her in law's work and I didn't want to add on to her worries.

Karthik would never be able to accept that us being in a relationship would be breaking trust, and would calm me by telling me to live for the present what should I do?

Thinking what my life would become once my parents found out, what I would tell them, would they trust me again I imagined the worst possible, even though I was not sure how my mom would really react.

Thinking so much made my heart heavy and every night thinking, I would force myself to sleep as a few tears trickled down my face.

I finally decided that no one can help me other than Karthik, I wanted to discuss about our relationship with Karthik, but I wanted to do it when I met him, when we could think clearly, when I could read his expressions and choose my words properly .

A week passed and I hadn't got the right time to talk to him, whenever we spoke we were so engrossed in sharing what we did that talking about this didn't feel right.

Finally tomorrow is a holiday, we were meeting for a few hours, after so many days, it felt different, Karthik was eager for today, he told me many times to not forget the meeting and to be there on time. I decided that this would be the best time to discuss, but listening to the enthusiasm in his voice, I didn't want to disappoint him.

We decided to meet for lunch, we went to a restaurant a little away from home. As soon as I entered I got the fragrance of Chinese sauses, the smell made my tummy rumble, I sat in a corner as I didn't want people to judge us as we discussed.

Looking at the menu card I placed the order for us, Karthik began sharing an experience from last week, he had gone for the birthday of his friend and one of the guys was too drunk that he danced crazily, Karthik explained a few of the steps with his hands, it looked funny and we were laughing loudly, tears formed in my eyes and my stomach hurt with joy, I don't think I should ruin us. everyone around us is happy, we are happy, let's wait for anything to happen and then I'll.....

" shona? are you listening?, what happened to you? " Karthik asked as he pressed my palm in his, I felt the shiver run through my body, I flashed a smile at him and nodded sideways .

The waiter brought the bill to us, we paid and left the restaurant.

I mounted the bike, instantly I wrapped my hands around him, one hand holding his waist and the other on his lap, my heart swelled, I felt complete, I inhaled his scent and nuzzled my nose on his neck, "aye" Karthik moaned, his palm was on my palm which was on his lap "shona, let's leave? " he said and started the bike, I moved a little away from him,when he started to drive .

As we rode, it started to drizzle, the cool air with light drops of rain sprinkling on the skin felt nice and refreshing , soon the rain grew heavier, we were a few roads away from Karthik's room "go to your room " I said, he made a few turns and halted, I closed my eyes feeling the rain, when he stopped I opened my eyes, Karthik's shirt was sticking to his skin, the white shirt clearly revealing his muscles, my heart beats slowly increased, I hopped off the bike and waited for him to come.

I wore a red kurta and leggings, when he came he looked at me up to down, getting self conscious I looked at my clothes which were also stuck to my body, I tried pulling it out and making it look normal, but it was no use, Karthik chuckled, he came near me, my chest raised and fell, his fingers touched mine, tingles of heat passed through me, making me feel warmer, he held my palm in his and took me inside his room, it was cozy and smelt of Karthik, the room had his books, clothes, and gadgets.

He closed the door behind me, I felt his hand wrap around my waist, he pulled me close,till my back touched his body,I felt his breath on my shoulder, it felt new to be with him like this,, one part of me liked this and the other rational part of me felt weird I shivered, moaned and flinched " ew, chicky, it feels wet types" I said scrunching my face and facing him, he had a smirk on his face, slowly he moved foward towards me without breaking eye contact, his fingers touched my hip and jerked me in front , " wet types eh? then what about this? " he said, heat raised to my cheeks, my lips were mere centimeters away from his, his hand rested on my back,pulling me more to him, I tilted my head towards his, he traced his finger along the shape of my face and tucked a stray strand of hair behind my ears, he held my face as his thumb carresed my cheek, I closed my eyes, his lips landed on mine, it felt soft against my lips, I didnt pull apart neither did he, we just stood, our lips touching, I felt tears trickle from my eyes when he sucked on my bottom lip, he stopped kissing, and allowed me to rest my forehead on his shoulder, I hugged him tight, thinking how lucky I am to have him in my life, " thank you " I whispered as he stroke my hair.

In a quick movement he pushed me away, I looked at him shocked and confused.

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