Confessions of a Weirdo

Entry 1 (The First Initial Stereotype)

In case you didn't know, I'm Ashley Brooke Robbins, currently using A. R. Nelson as a pen name because I'm getting married next year, but most people call me Ash. I'm a black-clad weirdo, a creature of the night, batty with the bats... I consider myself to a part of the gothic subculture, in other words.  

So, we've all heard about the stereotype in one way or another. Seen it, been called it, ya know. And so on, and so on.

This is from gothicsubculture.com:

"Three words best sum up what the stereotypical Goth is all about: death, pretension, and angst. The stereotypical Goth always wears black clothing, or every now and again white—never any other color. They have dyed black hair, black nails, white face makeup, black eye makeup and black lipstick—maybe some designs drawn at the edge of the eyes in black eyeliner. This goes for guys and girls.) The stereotypical Goth nowadays likes to dress up like a vampire or act like one. They like blood, death, coffins, bats, skulls, spider webs and anything spooky."

"The stereotypical Goth is excessively vain, and when he/she goes out dancing, will stare at him/herself in the mirror. They spend hours doing their makeup. Every ten minutes, they check to see if it's smudged. They also have a persecution complex. They insult and judge baby bats who are not Goth enough, but they get very upset and feel so tormented when some normal person makes the "Halloween isn't until October, you freak" comment. The stereotypical Goth never smiles and always broods. They write bad cheesy poems about angst or vampires or tragedy. He/she is not just an artist, but an artist (super pretentious bad artist trying to be an intellectual). They drink coffee, avoid sunlight, and only smoke clove cigarettes. They will not listen to anything other than gothic music. They hang out at graveyards for kicks or sit around at coffee shops all day. Their job, if they have one, will probably be either fast food or telemarketing. They take themselves and life very seriously and blow everything out of proportion. They always act over-dramatic. They spend a lot of time watching The Crow and reading Interview with the vampire again and again."

I got a chuckle out of this, did y'all? 

Imma clear a few things up for ya about myself.

-I'm currently wearing black pj's pants with colorful cat's faces all over them and a navy blue and gray striped shirt. And a flannel on top 'cause it's as cold as my frozen heart (flannel is not black). Would I wear all black if I could afford it? Probably not because I like colorfulness. 

-My hair's red, I just dyed it (it was blue). 

-I don't think I'm vain...I hope not. 

-It does take me a while to do my makeup, whenever I wear it, which hasn't been often lately. We live in North Carolina, it's always muggy and hot in the summer. It does take time, only because I'm using stuff (e.l.f. black eye cream) that doesn't come off easily. You mess up? That's the look you were going for because it ain't coming off without ruining the rest of your work.

-I don't have a problem with baby bats, I was one at one point, why should I judge them? 

-I don't own a black animal. 

-My family judges me for the way I dress, but it's mainly the tattoos and piercings, I just laugh. Because it's their opinion, they're allowed to state it.

-You'll usually find me laughing. I love to make the people around me laugh so hard they urinate themselves. You're welcome, Lauren.

-I don't smoke anything. I have asthma. Why would I torment my lungs even more?

In conclusion, my names Ash, I go by JustThatWeirdoNextDoor on most social media sites. I love to laugh & make people laugh. I listen to what I want and wear what I want. 

I love The Crow with Brandon Lee, my dad got me started on it. I love most of Tim Burton's movies, but, I also like so many others. I'd probably have to create a whole new post just on the movies I love.

If you want to shove me into a specific Goth stereotype, it won't work. I like the Victorian Goth style, Steampunk, Cyber Goth, Hippie and a little bit of everything else. I'm just me and now, at twenty-one, I've finally embraced who I am. 

Thanks for reading, I love y'all for sticking around and letting me ramble. Be nice to each other and laugh at least once a day.

Quote of the week: "I often think that the night is more alive and more richly colored than the day."—Vincent Van Gogh.

-JustThatWeirdoNextDoor