Mom where is dad?
Where is the man that
Before putting on his hat
Patted me on the shoulder
Or was i much younger
With much more imagination?
Mom where is dad?
There is this dream i had
He was in it, he was with us
He was there, i felt it in my guts
Or is that my heart?
We drew so far apart
That i cannot tell the difference.
Mom, where is my dad?
The one for whom my heart got hard
Mom why do i have cold rocks in my veines?
Why does it feel weird to call him by his name?
Mom, what is that?
Is that what happiness looks like?
Is this the thing i can't miss because i never had it?
Mom tell me, i can't bare to think about this
Don't u miss him too?
Mom, perhaps dad is gone
Perhaps he thought leaving us alone
Was an alternative, maybe he
Thought we wouldn't notice?
Maybe he thought that my previous dad had known this,
Maybe he thought you guys knew about my feelings.
Maybe he thought you understood my needs.
Mom, my lone provider
How am i supposed to balance this anger
No man could raise me,
No man could raise a family like u did
You've lived thru things i have only witnessed
I have only one request
Don't ever leave me like t h e y did.
Promise me..
You've sworn and devoted your life to me
I must have been your God,
I must have been your salvation,
I can't wipe away these waterfalls with my bare hands mom,
Tissue papers aren't absorbant enough
The torrent is stronger than me
My cheeks tore from their strength..
And u still try single handedly to keep my head up high
You tried to make me smile thru the flood
You never left my side,
You never budged
No many how i would wine, whip, and breakdown
I saw u putting my eyes back in place
Your power waw in your voice
No matter the choices u make,
U always took care of your little boy.
