Have Hope

Chapter 29.

~Kirstin POV~

"Hey Jeremy, what's up?" I say

"Just checking up on my two favorite people" 

"That's sweet" I say while smiling.

"So are we still good for going out tomorrow?"

"Yeah, yeah we are. What are we gonna do?" I ask.

"Well I'm not sure but I was thinking I could come by your place in the morning and then we can decide." 

"That sounds great!" I say just as Mitch walks back into the room to tell me that we have to plan some details for tour. "Look I really wish I could talk longer but I'm at the studio and I have a meeting"

"That's okay! Text me when you get home!" Jeremy says. 

After hanging up I walk into the room where the meeting is taking place to find Scott and Mitch snapchatting, Avi and Ellie eating, Kevin talking with Esther (probably about tour). 

"Uh guys...are we gonna plan this tour or..." I ask. Ellie turns, drops whatever food she is eating and runs to me so I scoop her up and walk over to the couch to sit down. 

"Yeah let's get to it!" Scott says putting his phone down. 

After about two hours of planning we decide that we've done enough for today and that we can resume at the next meeting. Although, I think Esther called the planning short though because she could tell I was getting kind of annoyed and was just giving short answers to everything. 

~Esther POV~

I could tell Kirstie was getting annoyed by the fact that we were still at the studio so I decided to cut the planning short and let everyone go home for the day. Once everyone left I stayed and since we hand wrote everything for tour I typed it up in a document just incase we lost the paper copy. 

This tour is going to be so great! I can't wait for the pentaholics to see the final show. With everything the group is thinking about doing the show is going to be so much fun! I think to myself as I finish up typing the notes up. 

~Kirstin POV~

After we finally got done I took Ellie out to the car and asked her what she wanted to do. So we ended up getting ice cream and then going to see a movie. Once the movie ended we went back home and decided to build a fort in the living room and half an hour later we were snuggled up under our fort and just bond. 

"So Ellie you know that tour is coming up right?"  I ask her.

"Yeah, you said that tour is fun" 

"That's right tour is fun, but there's something I need to talk to you about" I say with a serious tone.

"Are you not taking me with you? You said you would!" Ellie exclaims with wide eyes.

"No honey I am taking you with me. You're my daughter and I love you very much. But our fans don't know that I adopted you yet because I haven't told them."

"I love you too,Mommy. But why do the fans matter? Like why do they need to know?"

"Because when we get to the venue there will be fans waiting outside to greet us and they will see you get off the bus with me and they will begin to wonder who you are and what you are doing with us. They will take pictures and they will post them online and then rumors will start to spread about who's you are. We also do a meet and greet and we have a private performance in one of the backstage rooms and if I don't tell the fans about you they will freak out when they first see you. The fans are amazing though they are all so supportive and caring but sometimes they can be a bit overwhelming. I'm sure they will love you but I don't want you to be scared." I explain.

"When are you going to tell them?" Ellie asks quietly

"I won't tell them until you're ready but we should probably tell them before the tour starts" 

Ellie doesn't respond she just curls into my side. I can tell she doesn't like the thought of me introducing her to the fans. She has anxiety/panic attacks and the thought of everyone knowing who she is scares her. Once I introduce her to the fans I think she will be okay, it's just having to do it. I don't want to push her though because I want her to trust me. 

As I'm cuddled with Ellie I remember that I'm supposed to text Jeremy so with my free hand I send him a text.

Kirstin: Hey I'm home! Sorry I didn't text earlier Ellie wanted to build a fort

Jeremy: That's fine! I thought I would come over around 10 tomorrow and then we can go do stuff.

Kirstin: That sound's great. Ellie will be up by then so everything should go smoothly.

Jeremy: Sound's great! See you tomorrow!

Kirstin: Okay!

After I got done texting Jeremy I put my phone away and before I know it I'm sound asleep. I wake up at eight the next morning and realize that we both fell asleep in our fort. I carefully scoot my arm out from under Ellie so I don't wake her, then I get up and make breakfast. Once I'm done cooking I go and wake up Ellie so we will have time to eat and get ready before Jeremy comes over.

After breakfast I sit Ellie in front of the TV (playing Spongebob of course) so I can shower and get ready. I'm finally ready so I grab Ellie and take her to get ready. Soon enough we hear a knock at the door and Ellie runs to the door.

"Hey Jeremy!" Ellie says.

"Hey sweet girl!" Jeremy says as he picks Ellie up.

"Come on in" I tell him.

"Hey Kirstin" Jeremy says with a smile.

"What are we doing?" Ellie asks.

"What do you want to do?" Asks Jeremy in return.

Ellie just shrugs her shoulders and so we all make our way to the living room where the TV is still playing Spongebob. 

~Jeremy POV~

After just sitting and talking for a while, we decide to take Ellie to Disneyland. I wish we could take her to Disney World in Florida but we are in California so Disneyland will have to do. I can't wait to see her reaction when we get there. I'm driving so we grab Ellie's carseat out of Kirstin's car and then we are off.