Jake was the world to me we grew together my heart and soul belonged to him and only him. I dreaded that the three single words I wanted to hear from him never came true all I was left with was a broken heart in a lifeless body that would never respond to no one except him but he is and for evermore gone and my life is meaningless without his beating heart.
I loved him as much as the air we breath their was no other love in my life but my sweet Jake but I believed that to him I was just another girl if only I saw the love that we shared before it was to late but love can't change time but time changes love. I still remember the events leading to the accident like it was yesterday.
~~~~~Friday night call ~~~~~
Claire: "Hey wanna go to a movie?"
Jake: "........um I can't Claire bear"
Claire: "Why, do you need to study at home or something?"
Jake: " Er......no"
Clair: "Then what are you doing?"
Jake: "I'm meeting up with.........a friend I have to go later Claire bear"
Claire: " ......bye jake"
~~~~~~ Call Ended~~~~~~
Typical it was always like that with him, he met girls in front of her like it was nothing to him I'm just another of his girlfriends The word "love"never came out of his mouth,only mine. Ever since I've known jake I have never heard the word " I love you" from him before not even once. There weren't any anniversaries and all I thought was does he even care about me if he did he would at least remember but he didn't even say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 day's.......200 day's. Everyday,before we would say goodbye, he just hand me a doll, everyday without fail. I didn't know why then one day.
Claire: "Erm....Jake?"
Jake: "What....don't drag,just say"
Claire: "I LOVE YOU"
Jake: ".... Erm, you....what...? Just take this doll...and go home"
That is all he said that day that is how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me a doll and he disappeared, as if he was running away The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were hundreds. Then one day came her 15th birthday came I got up in the morning and pictured my party with him I stranded myself in my room waiting for his call but......lunch passed,dinner passed....and soon the sky was dark...he still did not call it was already tiring to look at the phone anymore then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my slumber and asked to meet outside my house my heart jumped he remembered he cared I was so excited and walked outside with my heart in my hands and saw his beautiful face in the moon light and called out
Claire: "Jake"
Jake: "Here, take this"
He outstretched his hand and in his grasp was a doll as grabbed the little doll my hart ached what was the meaning of this what did I mean to him and I took a leap of faith and confronted him
Claire: "Um... What's this"
Jake: "I didn't give this to you yesterday, so I'm giving it to you now. I'm going home now,bye Claire bear"
Claire: " Jake, wait do you know what today is?"
Jake: "Today? What about it"
My heart sink I thought he would remember today was my birthday he turned around and walked away nothing it happened it's like he had a stone cold face how could he forget was I not important enough but before he could get away
Claire: "Jake wait"
Jake: "You have something to say"
Claire: "Tell me....tell me that you love me..."
Jake: "What.... What did you say?"
Claire: "Tell me please. It's just three words"
Jake: "I don't want to say... That I love someone so easily,if you are desperate to hear it,then find someone else"
That was all he said,then said then he ran off. My legs felt numb....I collapsed to the ground he didn't want to say it so easily. How could he....I felt that....maybe he isn't the right guy for me. After that day, I stranded myself at home crying my heart out I couldn't stop not even to breath I gasped for air in between tears he didn't even call although I was waiting he just continued handing me little dolls every morning outside me house that is how the doll piled up in my room.....everyday. After a month, I got myself together and went to school, what made my pain resurface was that.....I saw Jake on the street with another girl he had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me as he touched the doll I ran straight home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears poured out.....why did he give these to me these dolls are probably picked out by some other girl...in a fit of anger,I threw the dolls around but then the phone rang it was him he told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house I tried to calm down as I walked to the bus stop I kept reminding me-myself that I was going to forget him, that.....Its was going to end then he came into my sight and he was holding a big doll
Jake: "You came, I thought you were upset"
I cant help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual and I gathered my courage with my broken heart and said
Claire: "I don't need it"
Jake: "What.....why?"
He asked why WHY I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road
Claire: "I don't need this doll! I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you ever again!!!" I spat out the words with as much pain as I could but unlike any other day, his eyes were shaking
Jake: "I'm sorry..." He apologized in a tiny and shaking voice my heart melted with sorrow as he said those to words to me and he walked over to the road to pick up the doll and that angered me all he cares about are his doll what's so special about them so I yelled
Claire: "You stupid idiot!! just leave the doll, throw it away!!!!"
But he ignored me then......god why didn't he listen just once in his life
💀 ~~~~~HONK~~~~~ HONK~~~~~💀
With the loud honks that rattled my heart the big truck was heading towards jake i screamed bloody murder
Claire: "Jake! Move!! Move away!!!" I shouted as loud as could. He stood up with the doll in his hands and looked me with those sad eyes I'll never forget that sound
~~~BOOM~~~
The sound terrified me to my core I SCREAMED AND I CRIED but nothing could bring him back no matter how much I wished that I could take back the words that I had said to him.....I couldn't and that was how I lost Jake forever. After that day I had to go through everyday with guiltless and the sadness of losing him and after spending two months like a crazy person I finally took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he had left me since the day we started dating I remember the days i spent with him and started counting the days, when we were in love "One...two...three..." That was how....I started to count the dolls "Four hundred and eighty four....four hundred and eighty five...." It all ended with 485 dolls I started to cry all over again,with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly then suddenly "I love you~,I love you" I dropped the dolls,shocked "I.....lo..ve....you??" I picked up the dolls and pressed it'd stomach " I love you ~I love you~" it can't be! I pressed all the dolls stomachs as it piled on the side
"I love you~"
"I love you ~"
"I love you ~"
Those words came out non-stop I ...love you....why didn't I realize that .... That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why did I realize that he loves me this much....I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it'd stomach, that was the last doll, the one that I threw on the road,the one he died for,the one that had his blood stain on. The voice came out the one that I was missing so much
"Hun..do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you. Um.....since I was to shy....if you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you everyday...till I die... Claire bear I love you..."
The tears come flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked God,why do I only know about all this now? Why He can't be by my side he loved me until his last minute and broke his heart and said awful things and God knows he died believing I hate him. For that....and for that reason.....to me ...it became courage.....to live a beautiful life.....even If it's without him, Jake my love will only grow stronger and with that strength I will live for both of us I failed you by doubting your love but I won't do that again your reason I keep fighting in this lonely world your love gives me the strength ❤️ 💋I love you Jake 💔💀
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Endless love
Short StoryClaire loved jake but she never knew if he felt the same but her proof of love coast her more then she could bargain for
