I had the urgency to take deep breaths (Like, really a lot!) as soon as I stepped out of the restaurant. Na-stress nang bongga ang kagandahan ko kay Glynice. My gosh, hindi ko kinaya si ate! I know it's hard to let go and move on, pero si ate hindi lang basta nahirapan, kinarir niya pa!
Oo na, first and only love niya na si Marco. I get that. But that doesn't mean that she has to waste her life clinging on to the past. Sabi nga ni pareng Ted Mosby, "You can't cling to the past. Because no matter how tightly you hold on, it's already gone."
And what they had was already gone, I suppose. Kailangan atang ma-learn ni ategirl that if the person you love doesn't want you anymore, let him go. Kung may chance pa, go fight for it. Pero kung wala na, geez, don't misuse your time fighting for a losing battle. Sana inilaan niya na lang 'yung time niya sa pag-curl ng hair niya because I love her curls the last time I saw her. Malay naman natin, some guy out there will love her curls, too, and he will love her more than just that, the way she deserves to be loved.
Sayang nga lang kanina, hindi siya naka-curls, she wore her hair straight down. Mukha nga akong tanga kaninang todo hanap kay ategirl kasi malay ko ba naman sa face niya. Napa-facepalm pa ako kasi sugod ako ng sugod, hindi ko naman pala alam ang itsura ng susugurin ko. Sakit sa eyebrows!
And then my eyes found her on one corner and I automatically recognized her as the girl who was at Marco's condo unit the last time. Nainis ako lalo when I realized that. Bwisit siya, ang lakas ng loob puntahan 'yung bahay ng boyfriend ko. If I should've known sooner, eh, 'di sana mas maaga ko siyang namalditahan! Jusmiyo, hindi 'yung umabot pa kami sa ganitong may display ng whisky prowess niya pa. May nalalaman pa siyang kadramahan, as if I care.
I sighed as I rolled my eyes. That's the problem with Glynice, she thinks I'll let Marco go just because she told me about their history and her pain. Did she think she's gonna mess with my head if she tells me that? Mukha bang ganoon ako kababaw para makabog agad? Ako pa ba? Geez, she got her chance, it didn't work out the way they wanted to. Theirs was over.
Nako nag-iinit na naman ang ulo ko, huh! I am a good person (Claimed it!) pero hindi ko talaga napigilan 'yung sarili ko kanina at binanatan ko siya. (Iba ata talaga ang epekto ng whisky.) Jusme! Eh, sorry siya! Mahal na mahal ko 'yung boyfriend ko. Parehas naming mahal si Marco. Ang lamang ko? Marco is with me. He is on my side. And as long as he is with me and he wants to be with me, mamalditahan ko talaga 'yang si Glynice kapag kinanti ako ulit.
Ano ba kasi ang hindi clear sa pagsabi ni Marco sa kanya that she had to let go of what they had? "Had" na nga eh! Ka-stress, hindi marunong mag-recognize ng tense. Kahit siguro hindi na-disclose 'yung reason before, the message was clear. He wants her to go on with her life, without him. Just like the way he did.
Jusmiyo, nag-aral sa states pero simpleng statement, hindi na-gets! I had always had high regards for those who studied abroad kasi iba ang quality ng education doon, but Glynice De Vera changed the game. Kajirits itong si ategirl!
Nakasimangot tuloy ako habang naglalakad papuntang taxi lane sa may Greenbelt 4 (pero pinilit kong ngumiti kasi nasa vicinity ako ng chapel). Quota na ata ako sa inis ngayong araw kaya hindi na din ako pinahirapan sa pagkuha ng cab. At sa sobrang inis ko, hindi ko na kinuha 'yung sukli ko sa taxi fare.
I was already sulking at my bed seconds later. Bwisit na bwisit talaga ako! Bwisit ako sa mga taong hindi maka-move on. Okay lang naman 'yung masaktan, mag-bitter, um-emote ganyan, pero jusmiyo give yourself some dignity. Mag-set ka naman ng expiration date ng lahat ng negatrons mo sa buhay.
My phone started ringing, disrupting my musings, and I swiped the screen without looking at it. "Oh?"
He chuckled at parang gusto ko siyang tuktukan kasi ang adorbs niya. Kaya may hindi maka-move on, eh!
