Thug's Nanny 2

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Few days later

Genesis

I sighed as I looked in the mirror . I saw my stomach getting flatter and my pants slightly starting to hang off of me  but it was unintentional .

I thought about Darnell's funeral in a few days and I just didn't know what to do . This was once again another of the many funerals I've attended in my life and I'm not even quite 20 years old yet .

I grabbed my antidepressants , shaking two out of the bottle throwing them back with some water following behind . I took a deep breath after they  went down and walked out the bathroom .

I put my jacket on , sliding into my boots I had on the floor . I tied my black hair into a ponytail as I wrapped a scarf around my neck. I wiped my eyes from the tears building up .

I've just felt myself easing my way back into depression and I was tired of it . I wasn't eating , I was oversleeping  , I'm lazy and I'm overwhelmed . I'm irritable with everyone and I always wanna be alone which turns into isolation.

I wish I could do better , I don't wanna be like this but it's easier said than done. I collapsed on the bed starting to cry my eyes out for no particular reason , at least so I thought . I heard my door open make me grab my lip with my teeth to keep from making my sobbing noises .

"Doll girl , you cryin'?" I shut my eyes tightly as Marek spoke .

"No." I whispered .

He sat me up , raising my face to his .

"You went to that King house the otha' day . It's him , isn't it? Whet he do?" He said in all seriousness . I shook my head , removing his hand from my face .

"He didn't do anything Marek. I'm just .. I'm not ready for the funeral I guess." I said . He nodded.

"I unda'stand Ge, but we gotta surprise fa ya." He said . I furrowed my eyebrows .

"Come on." He said , starting to walk out .

"Okay let me do something right quick." I said , he nodded walking out .

I went back to the bathroom , taking out my pills again . I sighed as I shook two more out , throwing them back . I grabbed the handy cup, filling it with water and drinking it behind them . I put it back in the cabinet until I shook it and realized it was empty .

"Shit." I hissed. I threw it away along with the empty bottle from last week .

"You ready?" I turned around quick to see Marek . I held my chest and nodded .

"Yeah." I mumbled . I grabbed my bag , starting to walk behind him .

I saw Raheem dressed, waiting for us . He grabbed one of his pair of keys from the wall and we started walking to the garage .

"You alright DG?" Rah asked me.

I looked at him . It took me a while before answering him . "Yeah , yeah." I mumbled. I rubbed over the sleeve of my coat as he crunk up .