OH LORD!

4

"Never love anybody more than you love yourself. Cause love is just an emotion and emotions vary changing like the season"

Summer

For the last two months I have been avoiding Ray. I purposely changed my days at the bar. If he came by I would lock myself in my room till he would leave.

But on a better note. I stared school. I wanted to become a lawyer and I was already 5 years in.

Lately I've been feeling really sad. I couldn't help if everything was moving too fast for me.

I just got home from school and Ms. Lori wasn't home. Stressful ain't the word.

When I walked into my room Ray was leaning on my dresser on his phone.

I pulled my curly hair into a pong tail. I put my bags down and started over to my shower.

Imma ask you one question. Why you avoiding me Bae?

He did look fucking fine as hell and I could feel my body betraying me by the second.

I'm not avoiding you I just don't need this shit right now!

Need what Summer. You speaking in fucking codes. C'mon baby I can't read yo mind.

He was right. I was just so confused.

I don't know what you want from me Ray. I can't offer you anything but sex right now. I'm incapable of love and I don't have time for a relationship.

It was true. I can't see myself loving anybody other than Summer. All I could offer would be good sex and great conversation.

Ray looked at me for a while before a smirk appeared on his face.

Its cool Summerly Ann we can just kick it. But Babygirl I gotta go handle something so I'll see you when I see you

And with that he left out my room and seconds later; I heard the house alarm saying the front door was opened. When the door closed it was slammed shut shaking the house walls.

He's clearly mad at what I said. But I don't care. I vowed to never let a man get close enough to break my heart again. The first time I could barely pick up the pieces; so why would I go through that again.
Could you blame me?

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Few weeks later Ray finally decided to get over himself.

Lookin ass nigga by Nicki Minaj played from my phone letting me know Ray was calling.

Yes Raymond

What you doing tonight?

Nothing...why wassup?.

I got a new club premiere to go to and I want you on my arm.

Well I don't know- my hair isn't done and I don't have anything to wear so maybe some other time?

I'm not taking no for an answer so I'm gone send my friend girl Drea over with my black card get whatever you like...I'll call Sabrina to do your hair. Drea should be there in the next hour so get dressed and call me when you get done. Ight.... One.

And just like that he hung up