I need to divert my thoughts away from you. You've been occupying my mind since God-knows-what. Instead of wallowing in self-pity, I get up from bed and decided to go to the mall-to unwind, to somehow get you off my mind for at least an hour or so. I see myself standing in front of the movie house the smell of buttered popcorn lingering in the air. It's been a while since I've watched a movie on big screen-and I'm blaming you for that.
You, who got this idea of waiting for a bluray release then we'll watch it together while cuddling, on the couch, with bucket full of popcorn and home made pizza. It's one of those moments where everything is perfect, everything falls exactly into place. Your hand fits in mine like it's made for me, my head on the crook of your neck, like puzzle pieces drawn together.
I bought a random ticket and bought some popcorn without bothering myself what kind of movie it is. And destiny is really, really making fun of me. The movie resembles us, the teenage lovers parted ways on the climax, not because they don't like each other anymore, it's because they're hurting. They love each other so much that they are hurting each others feelings. At the end of the story , they found each other, settled their differences, and like any other fiction love story, they lived happily ever after.
I wiped my tears off my face before leaving, so much for wallowing in self pity. I walked out, I reached for my pocket where the crumpled ticket is, I was about to throw it when my eyes darted on the movie title. Time. Right then and there, I want to broke down and cry like a lost kid. But I told myself I'm done, that I am strong, I'm over this. I was half-walking, half-dragging myself out of the movie house.
Time, the only thing I didn't have much back then. Prioritizing my work and my masterals, to prove something for my self. You were there, you're always there for me. Were okay, everything's okay.
But then again, I was wrong. At a blink of an eye, we're falling apart. I'm too fed up with everything that I didn't notice you. Enough for you to be hurt. I hate seeing you hurt, worse is that it's my doing. We're both crying really hard, we want us to work but we can't. But now I have time, lots of it. But where are you? I'll spend every second with you, to make it up to you.
I'm wandering at the mall, so as my thoughts when I passed by a bookstore. Ahh, how I love to read books. I bought two fiction books and I was on my way out when my phone rang. I was rummaging through my things to find my phone when I bumped into someone. When I look up to apologize, I was stunned.
Standing in front of me. Someone who I know body and soul. Someone who took a huge part of me, and never intended to give it back.There you are, stunned as me. I was about to utter and awkward "Hi!" when someone called you from behind. You turn around and smiled, you smiled like it was the bestest thing in the world. And you replied by saying "Yes, baby?"
