If You're Reading This Its Too Late

FEAR

I always hid myself away from this mucky sphere called earth
It was as if I was the outcast but with no cast
I feared for myself
I feared the color of my skin

I fear what could be done to me for it
I feared how people would give me a single story
About being a young black girl
I feared the way people would scrutinize me for it I feared on how would I get treated

I feared the skin I was stuck in
Wishing it was inside out
There was no running from it
So i kept myself secluded
Not showing my skin
Afraid if I showed myself I wouldn't be the same person who people thought I was

I feared the touch of another's race
I thought about showing myself once
But I feared that U.s Army would come barging in and trying to arrest me
For interacting with the "white" people

I always thought if my life would be different if I were "white"
Where I could flawlessly show my skin without no shame

My mom always told me I should love my skin
But what is there to love about it
She always told me god made me the way I am , he wouldn't give me any thing I couldn't handle
But isn't this a little to much

I feared the feeling of fear
I got tired of being paranoid
Thinking someone was coming for me
I finally found the true me under this disguise
I finally found my skin
The one I live in

I showed the world my chocolate velvety skin
That I've grown to love
I may have gotten stereotyped along the way
But this is my time to shine
To prove all u guys wrong
It took me years
To find the true me ......
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Hello guys I'm sorry if I have offended anyone whom have read my poem, I honestly love all types of races. So please if u feel a way suck it up and continue with life (lml just kidding if there's a problem please contact me personally so we can settle this love and thanks babe.)