Sterek One-Shots

I Need You

#4791+words #sadone Edited 11/08/2023

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Stiles POV

I can't believe it, I don't want to believe that he's gone, even now as I'm staring at the grave I just want someone to tell me that it's a joke and he's going to jump out of hiding any minute.....but deep down I know that's wasn't going to happen because I know deep down that my dad was gone, I've always known that his job wasn't the safest but I never thought I would lose him now, not when I needed him the most, when my mum died I suffered badly with depression and as I look down at my dads headstone, the old feelings that I've tried so hard to keep away was trying to come to the surface, the feel of loneliness, self hatred and the need to cut and what makes it worse is that I'm all alone, you never realise that your time with your loved ones would be cut short so smoothly, like we had breakfast together that same morning and by the end of the day he was gone from me, I know people don't live forever but I thought I had more time with him

Two years ago my best and only friend Scott was bitten by an Alpha werewolf who wanted to create a pack of his own and the only way for him to do that was to bite others, which turned him into a werewolf, at first it was fine but in the last few months, nearly six to be exact, he changed and not for the better either, like my pops I thought my friendship with scott would be forever but in the last six months I haven't heard or hung out with him at all, at first I tried to hold onto that friendship but a person could only take so many 'I'm busy stiles' or 'Allison is here studying', later on Isaac was always with him and he was often used in the excuses, it got to the point where I stopped asking all together he seems to prefer Allison and Isaac company more than mine, I decided to stop going to pack meeting, I never answer his calls or texts and I ignore him in school, it's like were complete strangers, since me and Scott have stopped talking I seemed to have a lot of spare time and it was then that I realised that I wasn't doing anything for myself

So I got a job, well I got two actually, one was working in the oldest bookstore in town, for 4 hours after school, the other job I got was somewhere I didn't think I would be working, my pops was trying to hire someone to manage the front desk, answer calls and deal with the public, because at that moment he had to take an officer off patrol to manage it, so I asked if I could do it a few times a week, so that means he didn't lose another deputy all together but only for a few days, he thought about it and asked the others what they thought about my idea, they agreed only because they hated the job, so whenever I was off school and during the weekends I worked with pops at the station, it kept me out of the house and I actually got paid to do it, since it technically was a paying job, I enjoyed it to be honest because I was also able to spend more time with pops and now I'm glad I did

I'm brought out of my thoughts when I notice a shadow next to mine I look up and stared emotionless at the figure "Derek" I whispered cautiously, he turned his head to look at me "Stiles" he answered nodding his head and for the first time in a week, I finally relax knowing that if anyone will understand my feelings it was Derek "you shouldn't stay here Stiles" he said after we stayed in silence for an hour "I don't have any reason to go home, now" I whispered sadly, thinking about how empty the house would be now without pops around, we didn't say anything after that and I don't know why but for the first time in forever I was content with the quiet. I don't know how long we where standing there but it started to rain, I raised my head and just watched "my mum use to say that when it rains it means the angels are crying" I spoke into the sky "mum are you crying" I whispered sadly, knowing I'm all alone in the world and nothing will ever change that

Derek POV

"Mum are you crying" I heard Stiles whisper sadly, it seems weird seeing him being so quiet I'm not sure what to say to him, he hasn't been to pack meetings in a long time and that Scott rarely mentions him, Isaac seems to know more about scott and what's he's doing more than stiles, the other thing I've noticed is that he smells a lot more of chemicals {is he taking more medicine than he should} I thought watching him closely, through out the funeral service I noticed Scott and the others glancing at him but he never paid them any mind, like he was in his own little world, the rain had started to come down heavily now and I know he will get sick if he stays out here any longer "come on Stiles, I'll take you home" I said gently, while placing my arm around his shoulders and steering him towards his jeep he starts to walk without arguing with me, which is a sign that he's not truly with me at the moment