I wake up with a cold sweat running down my spine. The dreams are getting better, not so vivid - not so... Accurate.
Enzo is lying next to me, his hand seemingly embedded in my side. I remember when we used to sleep like this, hand in hand, lips still partly connected. I don't wake him - I always loved watching him sleep. Instead I try to lie still, his deep breaths soothing me. Maybe we can get back to the way it was... But I doubt it.
"Morning BonBon" Enzo says with that sexy grin he does so well.
"Good morning" I reply, it feels wrong to live a normal, flirtatious life with him. I don't deserve happiness after what I did - so I am going to make sure I do not have it, no matter how much I want it.He makes breakfast, pancakes with two blueberries as eyes and whipped cream as a mouth just like... Just like he made them... Just like he made them when we were trapped in the prison world. I begin to cry - again - he couldn't have possibly known. It's not his fault, but I can't help feeling that this is going to be my punishment. That I am forever to be tortured by the memory of him. Enzo notices this immediately and must know exactly why I am upset, because he swiftly removes the pancakes from sight and pulls me into an embrace. He asks no questions, and I am grateful for that. This is not something I want to talk about.
The pancakes were substituted for a simple bowl of porridge - not as sweet as I remember it. Everything has been different since it happened - life looks like it has a film over it, my hearing is muffled on and off. I suppose grief does that to a person. A shame, really, since I have so much of it.
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All good things : a Benzo fanfiction
FanfictionEver since it happened, all those years ago, Bonnie has not been feeling good. She lost someone she loved. And she's paying the price for her mistake. (Set in the flash forward in season 7 episode 5 of The Vampire Diaries)