"It's all in your head Mia! Just think positive for once!"
"Easy for you to say!" I replied then slammed my bedroom door shut.
I walked over to my bed and plopped down on it.
I ended up zoning out, staring blankly at the plain old ceiling above me.
I know she's my mother and all. I know she loves me and she wants the best for me but it's all too complicated you see.
She has always said that it's just in my head and yeah she is right. Yes, that is the fucking problem. My damn head.
I can be surrounded and still feel lonely. Everyone could care so much but yet not care at all. I could be so happy yet miserable as hell. I could have everything yet nothing. So many friends but no one there at all. So many i love yet despise. So right yet so wrong. So alive but gone. I feel so much yet nothing at all.
I don't even know anymore. I just get so confused. I wish things were much easier. I wish it wasn't all so messed up.
I hate that I think so much. I wish everything would just stop.
I've been laying here for quite a while now. I hadn't realized that i had been crying. My pillow soaked in tears.
I crawled under the covers as i felt my eyes getting heavier. I managed to glance at the clock on the wall.
It was 3:54a.m.
Nowadays it's normal for me to be up this late on a school night. I am always awake doing something or nothing at all.
With that I drifted of to sleep just to wake up to another battle.
~Hunter
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Her Story(updating)
PoetryLetters,poems? and feelings of a confused girl. Her mind is pretty crazy and she doesn't understand why she feels the way she does most of the time. She writes whatever she feels and letters to people she dares not give. There are names she use...
