Dear Bully

Letter 14

Dear bully,

I ran into the bathroom and searched the drawers for a blade.

I found it.

I held the silver blade inbetween my fingers and stared at it for awhile

I held it close to my neck.

One push and a drag and im gone forever.

"Don't you fucking dare, Dian."

It was you.

I shut my eyes tightly before speaking

"Go away, Lucas" i whispered

"No."

"Just go away!" i screamed

I was about to press it against my skin but heard a gun being loaded

My head snapped towards your direction.

You had a loaded gun pointed directly at your head.

I dropped the blade and rushed to you

I quickly pushed the gun away from your head.

I looked at your eyes, scared and sad

"That's how scared i was of you" you whispered

"Don't do that just because of me." i say

"I'll do anything for you. I love you"

"You only started 'caring' when i starved and cut myself. You don't love me, you just pity me." i point out

You just ignored what i said and pulled me into a bone crushing hug.

And i liked it.

Yours faithfully,
Dian