I wish it didn't hurt. I wish I didn't feel this. I wish I didn't feel at all. I wish I could look at you and see you. Not you.
Nothing hurts more than this right now. I thought after the last one I fell in love with -if that's what this is- I wouldn't feel again. I wish I would have been right.
I wish I had done it when I'd had the chance. Just one flex and it would've ended. I wish the triggers meant nothing to me and I wish I didn't have urges. I wish I could stop.
I wish you would ask me. I wish I could tell that you care instead of just k owing or thinking. I wish you'd make me show you. I wish you'd make me pour my heart out. I wish I could tell you everything.
I wish. I wish. I wish..
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RandomGuys, this isn't a story. This is literally going to be my online diary. It will be vague. It maybe updated daily, more than once a day or sometimes not at all. I won't use real names, but I promise you, what ever is in here will be exactly what I f...