The Unspoken Thoughts

23: It Hurts

I doubt there is anyone in the human society who even fuxking care about me. 

That feeling when you just feel completely neglected by everyone who you care. They just don't give a shit about you. I really hate this feeling. 

I just feel like I am the background noise to everyone's life. 

Sometimes I really wonder anyone out there is afraid to lose me. I really wonder if one day I disappear would anyone notice, would anyone bother to look for me?

I wonder if someone will ever feel nervous around me that their heartbeat rise when they see me.

It just hurts when someone can mean to world to you. When you put it so much effort in them. But all you get in return is some hurtful nonsense. They don't even care or give a shit about you, you're just nothing to them. Nothing.