Only a racers love

Chapter 10

It's been two weeks since Jesse's death, I haven't talk to anyone.... actually I just haven't talk, Dom tries to get me to talk but I just don't. We're in Rio now, Dom and Brian are racing tonight, I'm staying how and watching Jack, Brian and Mia's baby because I just can't go back to racing yet. Shortly after j put Jack to bed I hear the door open and someone tell "Tater?!" I walk down and see Mia "I just put him to bed" I say, she thanks me and goes upstairs. I walk outside and down to the beach, I sit at the edge where the water just barely hits my feet "I'm so sorry Jesse" I whisper, I sit there for a while longer then here someone behind me "figured that you'd be out here" "yea... It's peaceful and it gets me away" I say, he sits next to me "how... How you feeling?" I look at him "honestly?" He nods "I feel like shit.. I feel like a horrible person because of me my brother is dead Dom" I state, we talk for awhile then we go inside and go to sleep

*trigger warning*
Dream
"IT'S ALL YOUR DAMN FAULT ISN'T IT?!!" "No it's not" I whisper "yes it is! Just admit it!! Whoever is near you or even gets close you dies!!" I cover my ears "listen to me!!! Dom is gonna die! Jacks gonna die! Mia! Brian! Roman! Tej! Let--" "STOP!!!" I scream "not until you admit it!" I open my eyes and see them all standing in front of me, bloody, bruised, beaten "you. You did this! You understand!! You and your stupid ass self did this!!" I cover my eyes once they find their way to Dom's figure "just do what you used to!!" I feel a pain in my arm and stomach ski look down and all the old scars are bleeding again "do it! You know it helped!" I hear Dom's voice say "that's why I went with Letty and not you! We all knew you did it, you're worthless, stupid and really arrogant to believe that I act---" I scream.
*over*

I bolt up and quickly run to the bathroom, throwing up, I hear someone shuffle in and pull my hair up and rub my back, I finish throwing up and flush then wipe my face, I turn and see Letty, tears falling down my face "hey hey what's wrong?" I shake my head "come on" she holds her hand out, I take it and she stands me up and we walk downstairs to the kitchen "what happened?" She asks "bad dream" is all I tell her "Tay you've been having these dreams for awhile now... What happens?" I shake my head "Tay you--" "you guys need to leave me... Never speak to me, about me or even think bout me... It's all my fault that Jesses dead, and y'all will be dead... And it'll all be my fault" I whisper the last part "we're never leaving. Ever. Got it? We're a family Tay end of discussion"