The Urge
By JJ Murilega
At a moment like this
What should I do?
Most would pray
To a being they only think is there
Not me
I have no such creature
Others might talk
To a friend
To family
To a lover
Not me
To my friends
I'm the strong one
To my family
I'm already enough of a worry
I've no lover to speak of
I'm taking medication
I've gone to the hostpial
I'm trying
Really trying
But it's not enough
The urge is there
Always there
Just under the surface
Begging
Waiting until that moment
That moment when I become too weak
Too weak
To fight off the urge
Too weak
To stop the flow of red
Too weak
To cry out
For the help I know I need
But strong enough
To pick up the blade
And cut
Just a little deeper
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The Urge
PoetryA poem inspired by my struggle with my depression. Rated for mentions of medication and self-harm.