Remember Cedric Diggory

"Life Just Keeps Moving"

3 weeks later (april):

Clary's POV:

Sitting by myself was my new favorite thing to do. It wasn't because nobody wanted to be with me, it was the opposite: I didn't want to be with anyone. I guess that's what happens when someone you love betrays you, you don't want to get close to anyone again because you are afraid they will hurt you again. That's exactly how I felt, so I just stopped talking to my friends. It wasn't fair to them because I knew they cared about me but I just didn't want to talk to them, or to anyone in general. I knew I was now a different person, I was sad and angry all the time, and I tried to ignore people but they still bullied me for what happened. I tried not listening to them, but it wasn't working because their words were like knives. At least that's how I felt the first week after the article was published, but now I just had got used to it.

I heard people gossiping all day. In classes, at lunch, at the library, everywhere. That's why I started hiding near the black lake. Of course not where Cedric and I used to spend time, it was way too painful to go there so I found a new place. I went there every single day, and I just sat there and I did my homework, I looked at the lake, I listened to music and I thought about everything. The first days I used to cry and I used to think about the break-up, but I just stopped doing that. I hadn't seen him since we broke up, and it was killing me. But I knew it was for the best, so I tried not to think about him so often.

It was Monday, and I was in my spot just listening to music. Spring was already here, so the weather was great and everything looked so beautiful. I closed my eyes and I just focused on the music. A few minutes later I felt that someone was sitting by my side. I opened my eyes and for a moment I thought it was Cedric, but it wasn't. It was Grant.

"I have been watching you. You come here every day, don't you?" He asked, smiling at me.

"Well, in that case you noticed I come here because I want to be alone." I replied, turning off my IPod.

"I know. I know you don't want me here and that you hate me but I just wanted to make sure you were okay." He said.

"I don't hate you. I just... don't like you. After all, you were an asshole who treated me like shit." I said, sharply.

"Yeah I know. And I am really sorry Clary. I was an asshole and I know I should have apologize before but I don't know... I was nervous I guess." He said, shrugging his shoulders.

"Nervous? Why the bloody hell would you be nervous? You just had to apologize Grant, it's not a big deal." I said. "And why are you here anyway? Why would you want to talk to me? After all, you know what they say about me."

"Because believe it or not I still care about you. And like I just said, I wanted to make sure you were okay. It must be difficult to listen to all those insults. And I know you broke up with Cedric and I am truly sorry." He said, giving me a sad smile.

For the first time since he was there, I looked at him. He was still the same boy I had met 6 months ago; clever, tall, and handsome.

"Thank you. And I am sorry for being an asshole to you right now. You just came here to make sure I was okay and here I am, treating you like shit. I am really sorry. It's just that I am so angry Grant. So angry and sad that I want to scream and kick something and if I don't do that soon I think I am going get crazy. I am so tired of feeling like this." I said, trying not to cry.

He took my hand. "I know and I don't blame you. Look if you need to cry right now just do it. If you feel like screaming then scream at me and if you want to kick me then do it." He said.