Resolution

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I might have lost a part of me every time I got my heart broken but, it all seems to come back with the beautiful words that her mind sews and her lips spill which get carved in my heart as deep as my love for her.

Looking at her, in the middle of the night as she sleeps is something I'm ready to do for the rest of my life. Seeing her with her eyes closed and her hair flowing on one side of the bed is a beautiful sight. Coated with innocence and lips sealed, she was one of the most precious people not because of all the diamonds she was worth of but, because her heart was too fragile to be in the wrong hands.

There is a sea of voices in this world but, the only one I like waking up to is hers.

She's the splash of colors I needed in my life and I didn't even know it. As plain as a canvas, I roamed around the city only to know, that a rainbow drizzle is slowly making its way to my heart and I loved it all along.

I have always loved her for the flowers in her hair, the amount of patterns in her shawls and all the magic she made with the things she said.
Running a hand through her golden hair, I realized how lucky I was to be the one she decided to give her heart to.

I looked into the mirror and smiled at the lipstick mark on my cheek which was tainted with her beauty and love. Her strawberry lips and all the mischief they held could make me do anything. I didn't have the heart to remove the lipstick mark, I wanted it to stay there forever to remind me of her and all the things she did to me but, of course, it couldn't.

She was an artist. She knew exactly where to draw in a stroke or throw in some emotions. I guess that's why my life was so beautiful now. We made a masterpiece together. I'm happy with all the colors she filled me up with otherwise; I was beginning to lose my soul to this unforgiving city.

I had always had scars that needed to heal but, they didn't until one day it was bright enough for it to dawn upon me that without her I could still be the one who was running from his flaws, towards the bubble of perfection that doesn't exist.

She taught me how to dream, I was held tight by the chain of time but, her hugs seemed to loosen them a bit, enough for me to slip through it and let her arms imprison me, I would willingly stay locked in there forever.

I could give you a million reasons for why she's the most beautiful girl in the universe but, I don't need to. Why? Once you get close enough, you would know for yourself.

I never knew it was possible to love someone as much as I love her now.

The strange shadows on the brick walls and my past always seemed to chase me but, I lost my nightmares since the night she started sleeping next to me and I loved every morning I woke up to. Every dawn, I opened my eyes to see her azure ones looking at me like they were mending my soul and her lips parted as soft sighs escaped them.

I had looked for love all my life. I needed someone to miss me when I'm gone, pick my pieces up when I'm broken and tell me when to stop giving it all to the hollow-hearted. Meeting her and getting to know all the secrets buried in the folds of her mind and hearing the cries in her heartbeats was a bitter-sweet experience. She had a lot of thoughts and opinions, I loved and respected them.

She soothed my mind, I was driving myself crazy. I needed her more than I think I did.

When I told her that I loved her; her body froze but, her ocean eyes had this bright twinkle the stars seemed to lack of. She was a storm, changing everything that came in her way but, she was a calm sea at the same time with the serene, sky-hued waves that met the shore when it got close and mounded the sand in a way that it looked like a work of art.

We'll be starting a new year together tomorrow and she asked me earlier if I had any resolutions yet. I replied that I had none which was a lie. My resolution was to love her even more; if that was even possible. It was spun from all the affection I had for her and how the light in her eyes is everything to me. I promise to shower her with positivity and not let the blackness envelope itself around her. My resolution is to free her from the webs of darkness she was trapped in and hold her hand so that she could walk into the world I had dreamt of.

We're slowly losing ourselves, running through busy streets, building skyscrapers and killing emotions.
We're ruining ourselves with the endless amount of time spent worrying about things that made us lose our sleep. I worked till the time my body decided to give up as I didn't know when to stop.
When she came along, I looked deep and tried to make sense out of all the changes that have taken place. I was wrecking myself and a war raged on because I had lost inner peace.

I got it all back, piece by piece as she wrote some words on the paper that were smudged soon but, I was quick enough to know that she had poured her heart out and bled all the emotions that had piled up inside her on a piece of paper that now lives in my wallet.

She slowly stirred in sleep and her eyelashes flickered open as her lips curved up in a grin when she saw me looking at her. "Why did you get up so early?"- She asked. "I didn't want to miss a second of celebrating the New Year with you," I smiled "Oh! I almost forgot," she said and threw her arms around my shoulders as I bent down to embrace her. "Happy New Year!"-She wished me enthusiastically.

"I wrote you a song, want to listen to it?" I glanced at her after we broke away from the embrace that I wished had lasted longer. "You wrote me another song? Thank you, you're the best!"- She exclaimed excitedly.

I had written a number of songs for her. I couldn't resist it; someone so beautiful who brought magic to everything around her deserves to be appreciated. My songs are basically about how much I cherish her or how I would have lost everything if she didn't choose to take my hand and let me go on that autumn night. My words would never be strong enough to sum up everything I feel for her but, I try. She thought she was terribly flawed but, all I saw was specks of perfection.

Some beautiful mistakes mixed with mindless conversations and unexpected kisses shaped our relationship. I would never want things to change, I want them stay in the same way.

I would keep my resolution for this year and for many years to come. 

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