Set You Free (Mewgulf)

The first blow.

Author's Note

This is a work of fiction. Basically it's a book tackling a love story between two men. Yes, you read it right.  It's LOVE between two men. This novel is a boyxboy story. It mainly focus on the lovestory of my favorite actor od the thai bl series "Tharntype", the one and only "Mewgulf".

Meron rin po itong rated SPG o rated 18 scenes kaya kung medyo allergic o di kaya naman ay medyo mitikoloso po kayo o sensitib sa mga ganitong bagay. Ngayun palang po sinsabi ko na sa inyong hindi po ito ang book for you.

It's a book for those who has an open mind and courage to see change in life. And those person who happened to see love without any gender and biases. Which truly promotes what love essence is.

I truly respect those person who is capable in accepting reality in life and atleast not judge people by there orientation or by any means, or even in any variation.

I would like to say that please do bare with my grammars. I knew it will be having a lot of error, so i would like to say sorry before hand.

And for those who is kind enough to accept changes and read this book. I would like to say Thank you! Ahead of time.

And for those who's equal in every single way. This is a special book for you. Hope you like it though. Thanks again and have a good day to you!

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Gulf's POV

It's already 10 in the evening but i'm still up at nagsusulat parin.

Kanina pa akong seven nag-start but i still don't seems to feel the pain.

It's just like the usual scene everytime that my body will just suddenly feel numb.

Parang wala akong maramdaman.
Parang wala na akong maramdaman.
Wala na akong maramdaman.
Walang wala na.

Siguro nasanay na ako sa sakit.
Sanay na akong masaktan.
Physically or even emotionally.

Katulad nung araw na yun.

It's funny how memories that we knew as just a part of our mind, can hurt us more than what physical problems we have in this world.

Those memories.
Those that gives  me a hard time every passing days of my life.
It's hunting me down.

Mga ala-alang nagpapasikip lalo ng dibdib ko.
Mga ala-alang hanggang maaari gusto ko ng kalimutan.

Pero alam kong kahit anung mangyari, ito yung mga ala-alang pinakaiingatan ko.
Mga ala alang pakaiingatan ko.
Mga ala-ala nyang kahit anung gawin ko,
kahit paulit ulit akong masaktan ay di ko parin magawang kalimutan.

Ililipat ko na sana ng isang pahina nag notebook na hawak ko ng makaramdam ako ng sakit ng ulo.

Nahihilo nanaman ako.
Lagi nalang akong ganito.
Ang hina-hina ko talaga.
Ang hina-hina ko.

Hindi lang sa physical na aspeto, but also the emotional aspect.
At nasasaktan ako dahil wala akong magawang paraan para maging maayos uli ang lahat.
Ang lahat lahat.

kung maibabalik ko lang sana ang lahat.

kahit kapalit nun ay talikuran nya ako, okay lang.
Basta alam kong maayos at sasaya sya.

Sumisikip nanaman ung dibdib ko.
Nahihirapan nanaman akong huminga.
Ganyan ba talaga ang lakas ng damdamin ko pag sya ang pinaguusapan?

Nakakainis!
Bumabalik nanaman ung mga alaala-alang ayuko ng maalala pa.