"Wake up in your bedroom and there's nothing left to say
When I try to talk you're always playing board games
I wish I had monopoly over your mind
I wish I didn't care all the time"
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I awake and find a sleeping Brendon next to me, I sighed. I'm so fucking pathetic.
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"i want to talk to you, it's just this whole situation I don't know anymore."
"ooh, seems like someone may need some sub whipped into them?" brendon said with a wink, I rolled my eyes.
"no, I mean, I feel this spark between us, especially when we kiss i"-"dal have you ever heard of a daddy kink?" he interrupted, obviously not taking any interest in what I wanted him to understand.
"can you just fucking stop?! listen for a minute!" I screamed, brendon stopped blubbering and looked at me.
"look, it's just hard, you're just a damn horn dog 24/7. I just want you to see what I see, & understand what I do. I think there's maybe something there, you know?" i said calmly, brendon looked at me and nodded.
"yeah, okay. I'm sorry dal, but I just only see us as a friends with benefits thing, I don't see us going farther than that." he spoke slowly, almost as if I were a child.
"whatever this is useless, I'll see you around I guess." I stormed out the house, not fully wanting to grasp the fact he didn't feel anything at all towards us.
I don't need anyone like him, I can do better.
I don't give a fuck about him.
I don't, I won't.
or do I care about him?
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the previous chapter kinda tied with this as well in some ways
