Today marks it
I didn't realize it then
but I do now
I tried to ignore the date
I tried to ignore the month
I tried to ignore my thoughts
but I can't
and that hurts more
than any way you hurt me
but it's been a year
this evening
will be when I waited
all day for you to leave your house
and I lied to my mom
I lied to my friends
and I now know
it was so dumb of me
to be happy
to think I could be happy
with you
because you just destroyed
all of me
you never fucking helped me
you just hurt me
and told me things
that weren't true about myself
but I went with it
I was so stupid
I still get scared
you constantly belittled
how I felt and what I would say
you made me hate myself
more than I already did
