Ang Boyfriend kong Malibog ! ^^ (Completed)

part 16 *The dark days 1*

GUYS ! PLEASE PABASAHIN NYO NAMAN YUNG BAGO KONG STORY "TAYO NALANG ?"  PURO HUGOT YUN ..

JAMS' POV

Malapit na birthday ni Ken , yiiieh , excited na ako , nakaisip na akong gift para sa kanya eh , Feb 5 na , next next week na sya, pero ang cold parin ni ken saakin ,

Im lying here , sa rooftop ng bahay namin , star gazing alone ? Yes ,

Habang nakatingin ako sa mga stars , bigla nalang nag flashback lahat , Lahat ng dating kami ni Ken, yung Ken na minahal ko , yung Ken na andyan lagi para saakin ,

Kinuha ko phone ko and I put my earphones on , and pumikit ako ,

*now playing , back to december"

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

Naalala ko pa nga dati , kinukulit nya ako lagi , nung bestfriends palang kami ? Yung kinukulit nya ako sa babe nyang tawag saakin , haaaays ,

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

I wish I could go back , those memories ? Its really kiling me ,

These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

I know its all my fault , kung dati sana pinahalagahan ko sya ng maayos hindi sana ganito , pero di ko rin naman kasalanan na naging busy ako , at naging ganon scedule ko,

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I hate it , kasi I really need him , kasi before , he was the one who is making me happy kapag nalulungkot ako , sya yung tinataas ako and naniniwala sa kakayahan ko , he never doubt me .

Yung mga times na hindi ko na kaya , andyan sya lagi para masabi ko na kaya ko , andyan sya kapag di na kaya ng wings ko sya yung sasalo saakin at hindi ako bibitawan ,

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

His laugh , his smile, his voice , his eyes , his humor , his hair , his hands , his weird faces , his teasing , HIM :(

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.
All the time.

Napatulo nalang bigla yung luha ko , maybe I loved him so much kasi He's my FIRST boyfriend

Pinunasan ko yung luha ko , and sabi sa sarili na ' I am a strong girl,' pero lumalaban yung heart ko , at iba din yung sinasabi ,

So , this is what pain feels like .... now I know