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"I'm Fine"

Does anyone else feel that when they get homework, that if they don't do it they'll feel guilty because they let down their teacher?

No? Yes?

Well I do, and it's no fun having break downs at home, at night in front of your parents because you saved everything to the last minute, and I know it's my fault; but I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm on a loop. My last break down was two weeks ago I think. But in grade five (I don't know how you guys do your system but we go by grades) I had a break down like every other day. And it's not fun, and after every time I cried I got a headache. In grade six my teacher didn't care so it was okay, but now reality has hit me and I hate it. I hate reality.

I know that adults are like, "you need to be more responsible because you're almost a grown up" or "grow up or else reality will bite you in the ass", or "They always have their eyes on the screen, they don't know what reality is!". I'm okay with that, I don't like reality and I don't need it; it'll only cause me more stress. My escape from drama and my family, my school and my non existent life is music, books and Wattpad. It's like my second (or first) family/home. I spend my time on my phone because people genuinely make me laugh and smile. And I love that. Right now I'm in grade 7 going into high school next year ("yay") and I'm honestly terrified, I can feel myself failing next year, and being lonely. And it scares me. But I'm fine

I'll always be fine.

~Izzy💜