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I send a text to Lucy, letting her know to bring Noah home. We drive back to my apartment.
"Who did you text?" He asks
"Lucy, come on" I say opening the car door.
We both get out and walk upstairs, as I am about to open the door and I hear Lucy talking to Noah, as she walks down the hall.
"Hey Noah!" I say walking to him.
"Mommy" he giggles, reaching out his arms
I take him from Lucy.
"Thank you Lucy. I owe you. See you tomorrow" I say.
"No problem. See you" she smiles as she walks away
"Let's get you inside little man!" I say opening the door.
We walk in, Elliot for some reason stays in the door frame.
"Momma who that?" Noah asks pointing to Elliot
"That is Elliot, he is mommy's friend" I say
"Elliot this is Noah" I say.
Elliot walks in and closes the door.
"Hey Noah" he says brushing the back of his hand over Noah's cheek
"Hello" Noah giggles, he is really ticklish
"He is a very handsome little man isn't he! Liv he looks just like you" Elliot smiles.
I take a deep breath, then clear my throat. Elliot seems confused.
"Let's get you to bed, it's late" I say.
I again, clear my throat in an attempt to hold back the tears.
I love him like my own, but he isn't. He will never be properly mine.

I walk Noah into the bedroom in my arms. I get him dressed, and put him to bed.

I walk back into the kitchen to see Elliot sitting on the couch.
I join him.
"You have a baby. Who's the father?" He asks, almost... Jealous?
"Erm.. About that. We had a case, a sex trafficking ring. Johnny D the pimp, he got one of his girls pregnant. She was assassinated, and he was killed in court, along with another officer. The judge and.. My old partner, were shot...anyway. The baby, he was named an orphan, the judge asked me if I would be willing to adopt him. And I said yes" I say
"Oh, Liv. I'm sorry, i.." he says
"No it's okay, you didn't know" I say, cutting him off. I don't really want another of his half ass excuses.
"Is that what you wanted to tell me?" He asks
"Well, I've had a busy five years" I say. "I started to date Brian.."
"Brian.. As in Brian Cassidy. As in Brian Cassidy the ass wipe?" He laughs
I laugh with him. "We aren't together anymore though, erm" I say
"What?"
"No it doesn't matter"
"No Liv it does. Please tell me" he says putting his hand on mine, which is on my leg.
"Two years ago, we had a case, a man who got away with all of crimes that he committed, I got really involved in the case and capt gave me two days off. When I got back to my apartment, he was there" I explain the rest of what happened, trying not start crying. I explain how the second time he took me away, and how he shot himself.
"Liv, that's awful. I'm so sorry" he says moving his thumb slightly so that it tickles the back of my hand.
"And the son of a bitch is definitely dead, because after what he did to you..."
"Yeah, el. I saw him in the morgue. He is six feet under" I say cutting him off again.
"just after that, munch put his papers in. And not long after that, Cragen resigned. I was made sergeant last year. But the new guy, Dodds, he came with his son. His son is now sergeant, and I am lieutenant" I say
"Wow! Liv that's great!" He says
I decide not to tell him about what happened with Joe and Roxy in the town house. I didn't want to over load him with information.