The Matrimony Book#2 (Completed)

Chapter 1-R.I.P

A Long Time I Felt Stuck,Hurt,Depressed Becausee Me And August Was Broken Up For Good I Just Couldn't Get Over How He Hurted Me How He Betrayed Me And How He Made Me Cry For So Long

And What Hurted Me The Most Was That He Didn't Even Tell Me I Had To Find Out From That Bitch.I Felt So Stupid Because I Really Thought He Could Be Faithful To Me.I Really Thought I Was More Than Enough For Him.Stupid Me I Thought That One Day We Would Eventually Get Married And Live Happily Ever After

I Was So Angry And I Hated Him And I Just Wanted To Cut All Ties From August And That's Why I Didn't Tell Him I Was Pregnant Because I Didn't Want Nothing To Do With August I Never Even Wanted To See His Cheating Ass Ever Again !

And That Was Hard Because Hes Not A Just Some Random Ass Guy He's August Alsina,Everytime I Turned On The Radio Or The Television I Seem To See Him.It Was Bad Enough I Was Already Livin In The Same City As Him

I Changed My Number,But I Was Still Livin In The Condo He Bought For Me He Could Show Up At Any Time And See My Big Round Stomach

I Was Seven Months Pregnant And Big As Ever The Day I Heard My Baby Heart Beat Was The First Time In A Long Time I Started Smiling Again.

Even Though Things Left Off Ugly Between August And I At Least I Had Got The Greatest Gift Of Joy My Son

You Heard Me Right I Said My Son,I Was Carrying A Beautiful Baby Boy,And I Decided To Name Him Ayden

And Oh How I Love Ayden And Everytime I Hear His Strong Heartbeat Or Feel Him Kick I Know In My Heart That He Loves Me Too

I Finally Got To A Place Where I Can Smile Again And I Can Breathe Again All Because I Had Ayden Now

I Was Preparing For Motherhood All While Still Getting Over A Broken Heart

Sometimes Late At Night When Im In Bed Alone I Miss August So Much That I Just Break Down And Cry

Some Days I Wanted Him Back And Other Days I Wish I Never Knew Him At All

Sometimes Im Just Wondering If He's Somewhere Out Ther Missin Me Or Do He Even Still Love Me?

Wait Do I Even Still Love Him?

I Shouldn't After All The Pain He Caused,And All The Tears He Made Me Cry

Truth Is That I May Always Love Him But I Just Will Never Let Him Get Close To My Heart Again

He Told Me He Love Me...How Could He Love Me Than Hurt Me,How Could I Be So Stupid To Trust Him I Should Of Known Better Than To Give Him My All,And Most Of All I Should Of Never Loved Him

I Was Trying My Hardest To Be Happy Without Him,I Didn't Wanna Stress During My Pregnancy So I Had No Choice But To Be Happy Without Him

So Much Has Changed...Me And August Was Over With,I Was Having A Baby Boy,Jalen No Longer Was Engaged And He Was Weeks From Having A Baby Girl,My Mother And Was Still Not Talkin,And My Grandmother Was On Life Support

So Many Things Going On So Many Mixed Feelings

I Was At Home Laying On The Couch Reading Ayden A Book

But He Was Not Havin It Ayden Was Non Stop Kickin Me

"You So Active Today"I Said Rubbing My Big Belly

Than I Heard A Knock On The Door I Put The Book Down And Attempted To Get But I Couldn't I Was So Big I Was Struggling To Get Off This Damn Couch

"Mimi"I Yelled For Help

She Ran In And Said "What Wrong ! Are You Okay?"As She Panic

I Laughed And Said "Im Fine Could You Please Get The Door"