Worlds Beyond Reason

I Remember

I remember standing in the sidelines

Laughing, smiling

Cheering everyone on.

And I remember how it felt

When I wasn't good enough

To be up there,

When I was rejected by everyone.

I remember wearing a smile

Everyday

Waving at everyone who pass by

When all I wanted to do

Was curl up in my room

And cry.

I remember when scores were out

And I was nowhere as good

As the rest of you.

And I remember how it felt

When everyone was laughing,

Happy

And I was standing there

Pretending not to care

As the hole in my heart

Burns on.

I remember when we met them

Strangers, new friends

And no one wanted to come

Come to me

Talk to me

Welcome me

And I stood in the corner

Pretending to fit in

Pretending to enjoy myself

When all I want to do is run away.

And I remember

I remember

Living in the shadows of

Everyone else

And I tried

Calling out

But no one knew me

No one liked me

And I fell down

And down

And down.

And now I'm standing here

Watching as the world goes by

Everything in black and white.

And I can't remember

How it felt

When the world used to be

Vibrant

Radiant

In colour.

And now I'm standing here

And I spread my arms wide

And I take a step

And I feel like I'm flying

Not falling

Flying higher

Higher

Flying to where I should be.

Flying high up to where

I'll finally be free

Of living in the shadows.

[A/N: Hey everyone! I wrote this when I was feeling overwhelmed of being cast aside all the time. I know this has a very similar theme to the short I posted before this but, nevertheless, I hope you enjoyed it. I'm currently working on an actual non-poetry short story and I'm procrastinating so badly on it BUT I promise it'll be out soon. Sometime this week or next week, maybe. Hopefully. Do vote, comment and share this is you liked it and please try my novel, Voices. Thank you c:]