Love Yourself; Jacob Sartorius.

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   It keeps running through my mind . He doesnt love you anymore. Stop trying to care... Do not care. He sees you as nobody now. Just stop . I wanted to cry. I did not want to cry ...

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   I was not with it. I looked at the mess they called food. Laying on a Styrofoam tray. I played with ... the only thing i had left . The heart shaped necklace. It dangled from my neck . I may have hated him. But i could never hate how happy he made me. How he helped me when i felt like not trying anymore. But i couldn't say these things to Morgan and Belle. He meant so .. so much . And he said i was everything to him. But if someone is everything to you.... How could you just walk away from it . 

 "A-Addy... whats the matter , after we talked about magcon ... you haven't been with it. Like at all . If its really bothering you that much you don't need to come. " I smiled at Morgan . "Guys... I will come . Just because he is there , i can still have a good time . " I was lying to myself. They screeched. "Good because its on Friday !" Oh yay . 

    Friday...Friday is all i could think about. 

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   I sat on my bed . Wiping the tears from my eye . Falling to my cheeks , landing on my pillow. I held the necklace tight in my hands. He couldn't have just moved on i told myself staring at my phone screen. "Forever" Read the caption. It was a picture of him and some girl holding hands kissing . He seemed so happy . I thought one day that would be me. But its not . And i shouldn't be crying . Because he is not ...