My Song || rants

three

I waited so long for you. Two years to be exact. I was there for you when you had your heart broken numerous times and was there the days you really missed your mom. I put my happiness to the side to make sure you were okay.

You didn't care though. You only focused on yourself. I gave up about half a year ago and felt so relieved and so happy and so much more less stressed but then you come back every once in awhile and it hurts. You just want to feel loved and don't understand that it puts me under strenuous amount of hurt to continue. I wish I had only considered us friends. I wish I had never wanted to kiss you. I wish I never had wanted to ask you out. I wish I had never cared for you.

Of course, I always will. We've been through too much together to not but it's been so hard on me. I just need a lot of space from you and everything will work out. I won't have feelings for you and you will never know I had feelings for you. It will go back to the way it used to be but right now I need space.

-L