Phan One Shots

Stay Away From Me.

Hello guys, I hope everything and everyone is doing well. This is going to be quite a sad one shot.

Trigger warning(s) : Self Harm. alcoholism, depression, anorexia, abuse, anxiety.

Summery:
Dan is in an abusive relationship with his companion Phil, he constantly gets beaten up by him and is trapped inside this bubble of depression and loneliness, but what happens when Phil finds out about the cuts?

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Dans POV.

I sit down lazily on my couch as I scroll through tumbler. Seeing all these blogs of quotes and people cutting them selves and I was smiling happily at them... It's scary how you can smile at something so.. Deadly. I would know. I roll my sleeve up just high enough to see the first cut and push my sleeves down again.

Sometimes it scares me that the reason... Thread on why I hurt myself is because of my partner. He used to love me. Tell me he loves me every day. He used to love me. It's funny how times change, it's terrifying how times change.

I used to be smiling all the time. Confidant. But when Phil turned 18 and had his first legal drink... Everything went upside down. Started going out with his friends every night and come back home, agressive and drunk. Scary and drunk.

He slapped me the first time two years ago and he smiled when he did it. And then he never said sorry.. As he kept doing it. But the problem as that.

I still love him.

After the pain he's put me through. The physical, metal, verbal pain has slowly made me become the shy, insecure 19 year old I am. I fear him. He can just snap at any time. And you never know when.

My heart started thumping ten times faster when the door handle opened up. Phil decided to come home.. Drunk again. Out with his stupid friends. "Hello Honey!" I say, getting up and saying those words to try and please him. I see his face look disgusted at me and I look down to what I was wearing and could see why he would be disappointed.

I had black skinny jeans on, un matching socks, and an oversized black hoodie. "Ugh. Fucking hell I don't want to see your ugly face at the moment." He says. Slapping my face before walking to the kitchen. The slapping noise echoed around the hall and I shake my head.

He would've been punching my face in by now so at least I know he didn't get that drunk tonight. "Would you like me to make you some dinner?" I ask and he comes storming out of the kitchen. I shut my eyes tightly, preparing for his fist to collide with my face. "So you don't think I'm good enough?" He spits on my face and I shake my head.

He pushes me straight into a cabinet. The cabinets and me falling to one side. The glass ornament that was sitting perfectly on it was smashed and o felt a tiny shard go into my hand.

I hiss out in pain and Phil's eyes widen in disbelief. "Phil no I didn't mea-" "Are you fucking testing me Dan? Because I will beat your ass all the way into next week if you don't fucking shut up." He growls at me and I shiver slightly from his words.

"Phil I'm sor-" "Your not fucking sorry," he shouts and I flinch away as he picks me back up by my collar and punched me in the arm, he would never hurt my face bad. Only a slap or light flicks but other then that he would punch and kick me on my body so I could hide it if I ever went out.

"Worthless fucking shit why did you have to become my boyfriend." That sentence hurt me so much. So he doesn't love me. "Sorry what did you say." "I said that I can't believe a worthless freak like you is my boyfriend." He says and anger boiled up inside me as I slap him across the cheek. Painfully hard as I felt pain in my hand so it must of been painful.

He flinched in pain and I jump slightly as I know that this wasn't going to go down well. I could tell that he wasn't even drunk anymore. He was just doing this out of shear enjoyment.

"IVE HAD IT WITH YOU HOWELL. THINKING YOU COULD DISRESPECT ME LIEK THAT!" He screams. Punching me hard In The arm and then in the chest.  I scream at the pain and he chuckles before pushing me against the wall.

His grip was painfully pushing into my cuts and I tried every bit of my energy not yo scream. He was about to hit me when my sleeve rolled down just enough to see the first five cuts that litter my arms and his eyes widen as his eyes stare at my wrist.

"Dan..." He says, his face going pale as tears well up in his ears. I brake my worst away from his grip and let out a breath as finally I got my arms released from his powerful grip.

I look up to him, tears now in both of our eyes and I cry loudly. "Oh my god Dan." He says and then he does something that he hasn't done in a very long time.

He hugged me.

"Oh my god Dan I'm so sorry I didn't notice sooner and the me calling you all of those names didn't even help oh my god I'm the worst human ever I fucking inflicted pain on my boyfriend." He screams. Sudden realisation striking on him at over what he's done to me for over two years.

And he looked like he was going to be sick.

"Dan.. Tell me that that isn't pen or anything for a sick prank." He says. Still looking down at my wrist, I shake my head slowly and he started sobbing loudly as he grabs my wrist. "May I?" He asks and I nod. He pulls my sleeve up and that when the true horror was shown.

About over 200 cuts just litter my right arm and about 27 of them are just words that I have wrote on my arm. "Is this because of me?" He says and I inhale deeply before looking down.

"Yes.."
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