Private lessons at the back of the class- Snarry fanfiction (boyxboy)(ENG)

Chapter 6: Snowy Night

AN: Woo this chapter is dedicated to HalfBloodPrincess14 for making such an awesome translation of this book! (Spanish, you can read it here on Wattpad) and to all of you who are still here and don't care that I'm a horrible author :')
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For the first time I felt loved. For the first time I enjoyed feeling wet lips brushing on mine. Before, I would drown in thoughts of loneliness, just thinking about my life drove me mad. I only heard nicknames like 'The boy who lived', 'The chosen one', 'The special boy' around every corner. There was no Harry. Maybe there never was a Harry Potter in the first place. Maybe I was only an idea in every wizard's mind, an idea everyone could hold to, to never lose hope. I would be followed by paparazzi everywhere, people would always stare at me, kneel on their knees in front of me and praying, hoping that I could somehow change their fate. Truthfully I didn't want to become a God, I was an ordinary boy living in a boring house for godness sake! I never chose to live the life I was given, I didn't choose to be the only survivor of that attack, yet everyone thinks I am someone worth praying to. I wish these people could understand that I am not someone special, but truthfully I think they never will and somehow I am getting used to that idea. At least they are able to feel better by believing in me.

I was lost since I was born, I never truly knew who I was and always listened to what everyone else would say about me. I believed those things and always became the Harry from the rumors. I lost all hope, I couldn't find myself. With each day passing I felt even more empty as if I'd dissapear any moment, fading into the sky, yes, that seemed like a perfect scenario. No one would even notice I'm gone, at least the REAL me.
But after so long I found myself. It was so unexpected, so out of the blue that I almost didn't believe it was really happening. At last I found myself in the man everyone hated. The 'greasy haired git' everyone is scared of. When I really understood the pain he felt all his life I realised how much we are alike and how much more I started noticing him. Just meeting his gaze made my heart skip a beat, hearing him speak made butterflies erupt in my stomach I wasn't able to stop this and I didn't understand why. I started to get closer to him, I felt this strong connection to him that made me dizzy but euphoric at the same time. I was so madly in love that I finally found myself and it was him who helped me. He saw the real me, the shy hormonal teenager with hobbies and dreams which were not chosen by society. And I could see the real him, a teacher who wants to be kind and help his students but because of the way he looks and his previous pretending for my sake he has a bad reputation which probably won't disappear.

While Severus was kissing me I watched as it started snowing outside, I hoped that it would snow all night so that I could go and lay in that freezing snow forever. And I wondered if I could then fade into the night sky.