∆ JUSTIN ∆
GRIEF . grief is ugly , it eats at you and destroys you and everything around it , it has no mind so it doesn't seem to know right from wrong , it grows on the weak and it dies on the ones that got stronger . yeah that's grief but its the only feeling I have now after juily died , no I don't feel like a man but I hang on grief so I know I'm still alive .
" hey , are you listening to me ?" Alice asked in a light tone almost like you do to a baby
" no" I answer honestly , I didn't have to lie about it
" OK , so talk to me and I'll listen, yeah?" Alice asked in a smooth voice as she had before
" no , what makes you think I still want you here , leave " the truth be told I wanted her to stay , I wanted her to hold me and make the pain go away but I also knew I couldn't let people know what happened that night, no one will ever know but me and juily and that secret killed her and one day it will do the same to me but differently than her and that's why I'll never open up to a one night stand or anyone in that matter but I can have someone there and be with me without really being their .
" errr, I mean stay , let's not talk about it " I begged her and she runs her hand up my chest an sighs to herself
" your broken Justin " I stiffen at her words but I keep my mouth closed " and you need someone who can help , I'm not talking about Doctor's but a close friend or a family ember " " that's all it takes but you also have to be welling to try and not give up " she says and the way she said it made me look at her in a whole different person, Alice is a girl you fück and party with and she's the funniest and childish friend but that's what makes her so loving to everyone, its hard to hate her but I would never let her in ,never
" I'll think about it ,babe" I said as her started to fall asleep.
when Alice left I started think about opening up but to who is the hard part , I mean you can't just walk up to a friend and say " hey , did I tell you about juily and how she died or the reason for it ? well if not then just ask " I mean that's not something I can do and pulse she died for that secret .sighs. maybe if I get someone who doesn't know me and is willing to talk to me can help without them knowing ?
KNOCK KNOCK! came from the door but I knew the people behind those doors was not a friend I knew that it was the R.K.J'S and why they where looking for me . I didn't waste any time putting my clothes in a bag along with money and passport but I couldn't think of away out
KNOCK KNOCK
" We know your in there" came a voice and then a aloud BOOM and foot steps but I jumped out the widow and started climbing up the fire escape and on to the roof and into the rainy night before they could even get to the open widow.
