My Random Thoughts

I CAN'T TAKE IT

I'M SICK OF PEOPLE MAKING NO SENSE! I know my mind exagerates things, BUT I DON'T CARE! I'M JUST SICK OF FEELING FORGOTTEN AND LEFT OUT AND BROKEN!! I JUST CAN'T FEEL ANYMORE! MY HEAD HURTS FROM EMOTIONS THAT I DON'T FEEL! I'M BROKEN! I thought I was broken before, but at least I could CRY! Right now, I just want to DIE! And anything that could make me happy is either FICTIONAL or NEVER GONNA HAPPEN!! I thought I was done with false hope, but NOT REALLY! I still had it, just hidden where I forgot about it. And THAT FALSE HOPE IS WHY I'M BREAKING DOWN INTO DUST! MY TRUST WAS FALSE HOPE! MY FEELINGS WERE FALSE HOPE! MY MIND'S CREATIVITY WAS ALL FALSE HOPE! FALSE, FALSE, FALSE!!! i just wanted something to go right. now i feel like im losing most of my friends and all happiness. WHY CANT ONE THING EVER GO RIGHT AND STAY RIGHT?!?! I MAKE FRIENDS, THEY EITHER LEAVE ME OR FORGET ABOUT ME! I GET A CRUSH, HE EITHER TURNS ME DOWN FLAT OR FINDS ANOTHER WAY TO RIP MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST AND DESTROY IT!! I TRY TO BE NORMAL, I END UP LEFT OUT AGAIN!! I'M JUST sick of everything going wrong and hurting me. im broken enough mentally and physically. why do i have to be broken emotionally? i just want the pain to stop....