Pain, Love, & Poetry

Tired of Me

She'll get tired of me
She'll walk away
Soon enough I won't have the power to make her stay.
I'm a complete wreck
I'm useless and worthless
And without her my life will only be a mess
But I can feel her slipping
She's slowly getting tired
I wouldn't deal with myself if I was paid and hired.
I can't blame her
I couldn't be mad
She's put up with my ass longer than most, she's the best I've had.
But my mind is lost
And my souls is eaten away
With myself I couldn't imagine a longer stay.
My head screams at me
My eyes beg to cry
But I've run out of tears no matter how hard I try.
I will never be great
I'll never be something
Because I'm already awful and I'm headed for nothing
I love to pretend
That everything's alright
When really I'd rather cry all through the night.
No it doesn't get better
It's never what I want
But these thoughts crawl to my head and begin to haunt.
I just want a way out
I want to be free
I want to rid myself of these bad times that take over me.
I want to make her stay
And give her all I've got
I never want to leave her memories here to rot
She's what I care about most
She keeps me in gear
But I wish for her mind to never begin to steer
I'm tired of myself
So she must be tired too
I'll do everything in my power to stop that from becoming true.
-Madison Rayne