Where'd She Go?

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Is it bad for me to want something better? 

NoI'm not sure, but I do.


Am I a bad person for wanting to be happier, since there are people who have it worse? 

No, I don't believe so. I believe that we all deserve our happiness. 


Am I always a good person?

No, I'm not, but who is?


Am I okay?

No.


Do I want to talk about it?

Probably not. 


Am I sure? 

I'm not sure of anything.


What happened to my happy personality?

I don't know, maybe I scared her away. 


How come I don't sleep?

Here you can try what I go through, and you'll see why.


Why am I so mean?

You know that's a hard one. Sometimes I'm mean because I don't know how to talk. Sometimes I'm mean because I can't handle emotions, and it scares me when I have them. Sometimes I'm mean because I don't like you. Sometimes I'm mean because I like you to the point where I'm terrified. 


What happened to the fun me?

I guess all the tears drowned her. 


I'm a horrible person?

Yeah, I know. 


I used to be bearable?

Really? No one ever cared to tell me.


I don't give myself enough credit?

No, I give it to myself. But, then take it away when I notice all the bad things that I did to get here.


I can't see my own beauty?

No, I can't, funny neither can anyone else. Except you..


Why can't I just tell them I like them?

Why risk my safe haven in order to do it? Why risk losing some people who are really close to me? Why would I do the same thing that broke me to begin with?


Didn't I used to be best friends with her?

Oh yeah. A couple years ago..


What happened between us two?

Why don't you ask her and get back to me? No, I guess she just got bored, or lost interest.


Why don't I stop worrying about it?

I've tried trust me. But, I don't do that.


Why won't I give in to true love?

True love does not exist. Those who believe in it are naive, and foolish. They're looking to be hurt. 


Why am I sitting in my room alone, asking myself these questions?

Because I don't know who I am anymore, and I want to change that. 


Why don't I just change it then?

I don't know how...

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