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Chapter 13

- V A N S- 

Harry told us na aalis na siya a week before graduation, so bali ipapadala nalang ung diploma niya sa US. We helped him choose between Harvard and Stanford together with Calum, Red and Abi. Pero si Calum talaga ung nagbigay ng opinion tungkol sa dalawang schools since marami siyang alam tungkol doon. 

"I mean magandang school and Stanford for Medicine but Harvard is the best school for anything. Sobrang liit lang ng chance na makapasok doon so I think you should go there I mean that would be cool." sabi ni Calum as he read the manuals from both schools na nakapangalan sa name ni Harry.

So he did repplied to both schools pero he sent an apology letter to Stanford and an acceptance letter to Harvard. 

A week has passed with the 5 of us just constantly hanging out since we don't want to waste any time. And today which is saturday, we all decided to go to BGC wala lang just so we can all hangout, do shopping for Harry and for us. Tas kain lang ganon.

"Hey, Vans can we talk? Uhm privately?" tanong niya glancing to Red, Calum at Abi. Nag excuse silang tatlo kahit na alam kong nandun lang sila sa likod na lamesa pumunta. Tinapik ako ni Abi sa likod at bumulong sakin na umayos daw ako.

"So? What do you want to talk about?" tanong ko.

"I just want to say I'll be leaving tomorrow." 

Fuck.

"Oh.. akala ko 3 weeks pa?" sabi ko habang pinipigilan ung luha kong bumagsak.

"I- Ate Gem called yesterday saying that the interview was moved next week and I have to be there. I'm sorry I know it was a short notice, I didn't want to leave too early pero kaylangan." sabi niya looking down to his hands.

"Hey it's fine really. Plus it's for your dreams diba so bakit ka nalulungkot. Syempre friends mo kami we'll continue to support you no don't worry. Okay lang swear." bumibigat na ung paghinga ko.

"Excuse me lang ha." Hinigit na ako ni Abi papuntang C.R.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck!" sigaw ko. buti nalang walang tao sa loob ng CR, hindi ko na napigilan umiyak. Bakit? hindi ko alam. Who am I kidding really of course I know why am I crying, I know why. I love him and I'm afraid na lalayo na siya. 

"Vans..." niyakap ako ni Abi. Alam ni Abi at ni Red na mahal ko padin si Harry like fuck, sino bang niloko ko diba, sarili ko lang naman. Ewan ko ba parang takot na takot akong sabihin na mahal ko siya. Natatakot ako na baka pag sinabi kong mahal ko siya hindi ko na siya mapakawalan. I don't want to hold him back. That is his dreams, sino naman ako para pigilan yon diba.

"I don't want him to go but I want him to pursue his dreams. It's tearing me apart." Sabi ko habang humihikbi. 

"Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko, pero I hope you know what's best for you Vans." sabi niya habang hinahaplos ang likod ko. She comforted me and she texted the boys to go to the car para hindi na nila ako makitang namamaga ang mata kaiiyak. I calm myself down and let Abi do my make up again which took up too much concealer since namumugto nga ang mata ko.

Paglabas namin ng CR wala na nga sila pumunta kami sa parking lot kung saan naandoon na sila.

"What took you two so long in the CR?" tanong ni Harry. 

"Girl issues! Diba Vans?" Sabi ni Abi covering me up.

"Yeah..." sabi ko lang. 

"Oh okay. Let's go then?" tanong ni Harry saamin at sumak na kami. Kaming tatlo nila Red at Abi and nasa likod while Calum stayed at the front seat while Harry drive the car.