Red

Her

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When I got to school I felt this feeling that today would be one of the worst i shrugged the feeling away until I heard A girl scream "clay" I turn around to see A perfect girl fling her self into clays arms and slam her lips to his he Eagerly kisses her back then he pulls away and hugs her like she's some kind of miracle he's been wishing for since he was 8 she was truly perfect, perfect skin perfect body perfect hair perfect everything and right then I knew this is the girl he deserves I feel something fall down my cheek my hand swipes it away I look at my hand and realise it's a tear I look around thank fully no one notices I quickly run to an abandoned dance studio making sure no one sees me when I get there I look in the mirror tears streaming down my face my mascara coming along with it and all I can say is "the worst day of loving someone is the day you lose them" and all I can think is I'm done, I'm done I've had enough I hate looking into a mirror and hating what you see knowing how dead I am inside how worthless I feel, it doesn't matter what I do what I choose i'm what's wrong there's nothing I can do about it if I'm not hurting myself i'm hurting everyone around me there's nothing I can do about it I am...I'm broken at that point I fall to the floor head in my hand crying my heart out everything I've ever cared about is gone I've never been more alone I have nothing, no one it's all gone I wish I couldn't feel anything, The pain doesn't go away you only make room for it. I remember when I first started feeling depressed from being bullied
Flashback
I was sitting in my room staring blankly at the wall I was 14, 1 day before I was kidnapped my ex best friend walked and sat on the bed and she says "Crimson something's changed in you, you never leave your room, you barely eat these are text book signs of depression, your distant, cold"

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