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"There's no perfect lie, but still we have the habit to stick to it."
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FYN'S POV
I watch how he bore his eyes on me, as if looking for something. Somethings we both know will never going to exist.
Kahit naman ako gusto yung mangyari, na sana hindi totoo lahat ng lumalabas sa bibig ko. But that will only be a wishful thinking.
ANDREW'S POV
I look away for a second, nang masyado na akong nakatitig. Alam kong hindi maganda ang pahiwatig ng tingin ko, dahil kahit ako ayokong maniwala sa mga sinasabi niya.
She took a deep breath, looking away from me, before continuing again.
"Once you we're contaminated by the ZO... only way to escape it is death..." nakita ko na apektado talaga si Fyn dito... she's blaming herself again.... "Tulad nang sabi ko dati..." yeah she's been playing with words, rearranging facts and lies para paniwalain sila. She really is just good with her words because she knows they would believe in her.
"Anong alam mo?" Lakas loob na pagtatanong ko... "Fyn anong nakita mo?" nàpatingin sya sakin uli... there I saw guilt and pain.
"...it's something... I can't even dare to imagine again..." napakuyom ang kamao ko dahil para syang natrauma sa mga nakita nya.
"Fyn... there must be--"
"Wala na Andrew!" ibinagsak ni Fyn ang kamay nya sa Mesa at tumingin sakin ng mariin, may nagbabadya ng luha sa mata nya "..."
"Please wag mong sisihin ang sarili mo Fyn... kung meron mang may kasalanan dito... hindi ikaw yun... ang First Tower, ang first empire yun. Sila ang may kasalanan..." sabi ko habang yakap na sya... biktima rin lang naman si Fyn dito hindi ba? Wala syang magagawa noon dahil bata lang sya... dahil akala nya dati wala syang kakampi.
"*sobs* I should've known this is going to happen..." pag-iyak nya pa... "Naging selfish ako, akala ko dahil nakawala ako at nakatakas sa lahat okay na ang lahat..."
"....."
"I want to kill that side of me... I want to kill Pandora... I want to kill myself..."
"Wag mong sasabihin yan... there must be a way right? Naisip mo na yung magreresolba ng problema... alam kong naisip mo na... sasamahan kita Fyn... alam mong hindi kita iiwan!" mas hinigpitan ko ang yakap sa kanya... hindi nya pwedeng sabihin ang mga bagay na yan... Hindi sya pwedeng mawala sakin. I'm going to be selfish at hinding-hindi ko sya hahayaang mamatay at gusto nya.
"...so-sorry... hic.... kasi naman eh! ...*sobs* kung Ano Ano kasi tinatanong mo! Naiyak tuloy ako!..." natatawang humiwalay ako sa kanya at pinunasan ang pisngi nya "hic... wa-wag ka ngang tumawa!...hic..."
"...." ngumiti ako sa kanya "What it is? Tutulungan kita... we're going to be wedded so ngayon palang papasanin ko na rin kung anong pinapasan mo para masanay naman ako..."
"haha... Sira..." Pagtawa na nito
"...don't think too much Fyn... Anong plano mo?" pagtatanong ko sa kanya uli.
"The mist... I will be remaking the mist..." napakunot ang noo ko sa kanya.
"Pano mo ipapainom sa bilyong tao ang gamot na yun? Fyn yun talaga ang plano mo?" kunot noong sabi ko at may pagtataka na Tinignan sya.
"Oh... Mist isn't really in the form of drug..." napalingon ako sa pinto at nakatayo dun yung Lalaki na kasama dito ni Fyn kanina pa.
"He's Black... he's trust worthy... if he isn't patay nà sya ngayon..."
"So brutal Pandora..." and... a gay?
"What do you mean that Mist isn't a drug?" seryosong pagtatanong ko... di ba sinabi ni Fyn dati na uminom sya ng Mist kaya sya nakalimot?
".....do you know... of the legend of Beethoven's compositions?"... Beethoven? "It was told memories can be manipulated... but then again, our brain was very much real complicated."
"So you mean?"
"Sound... Mist is something from the sound... that's the real mist..."
"...."
"Sinasabi ko sayo Andrew... I shouldn't be alive in the first place."
"You don't say that...." I snapped, why is she always like this? Kung itapon nya ang sariling buhay nya parang hindi yun sa kanya. "Pwede ba kahit minsan sabihin mo na gusto mo namang mabuhay?"
"Andrew—"
"Pwede ba kahit minsan Fyn... mabuhay ka? Na wag mong itapon ang buhay mo?"
"Andrew it was just a—"
"Metaphor?" I mocked "Then why it is hurting me? Oo hindi madali sayo, pero isipin mo naman na hindi rin naman madali para samin. Na hindi madali para sakin, na yung buhay ko... gusto nang mawala."
"I'm sorry..."
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