Nothing Like Us

Chapter 8

Justin's POV

"Selena wait" I yelled as I ran after her.

Damn she was fast. She was trying to get away but I wasn't going to let her get away that easily. She stopped abruptly and I nearly crashed into her. Panting I looked up and her and saw a hard look on her face. I could tell she was trying not to break down.

"Was that the first time or have you two been going behind my back every time you met up?" She asked.

"That was the first time I swear" I told her. "Please just let me explain"

"There's no need to explain. I know what I saw" Selena said sadly.

I felt bad. I could tell that she was desperately trying to hold back the tears. I wanted to hug her but I decided against it incase she reacted badly. She looked at me waiting for me to say something but I couldn't. I mean what could I say?

"I should of known" Selena sighed. "Just by the way you talked about her. You always wanted to meet up. I'm guessing that's why you went to Demi's concert that night? To see her?" She asked.

I nodded. I noticed that the tears she was trying to hold back finally broke free. It made my heart feel heavy knowing that I had caused those tears. She tried her best to dry her eyes but failed miserably as she had no tissue.

"Here" I mumbled, handing her a tissue from my back pocket.

"It's either her or me Justin" she said clearing her throat. "I'll see you around"

And with that she walked away before I could say anything. I watched her leave and felt numb. I knew that Lauren was waiting for me to return but I didn't want to go back, so I made my way towards my car. I needed to go home.

On the journey home all I could think about was the two girls. Who did I choose? Did I even want to choose? Was Lauren worth throwing away a two year relationship for? Did I actually feel something for Lauren or was it all in my head?

Yet anytime I thought of Lauren a smile always formed on my face. She made me feel happy. I could be myself around her. Sometimes I felt like we were the same person. But was that a good or bad thing?

I thought of some many questions that my brain was exhausted. I couldn't deal with this tonight. It could wait until the morning. It took all my energy to climb up the stairs and walk into my bedroom. I fell onto my bed, not bothering to take my clothes off. I eventually fell into an uneasy sleep.

- 2 days later -

I paced around my bedroom floor for what felt like the billionth time. Why was this so hard for me? If you asked me 2 days ago who I would choose it would of been Lauren. Yet when I'm given an ultimatum I just can't decide. It was really frustrating!

I guess the reason I was like this was because I didn't want to hurt anyone. I knew I had to pick one. But by picking one I'd be letting the other down. I'd tell them we'd still remain friends but that would be lying. The truth is that I wouldn't be able to look at them not a mind be their friend.

As I continued to pace around the room a picture caught my eye. It was a picture of Selena and I backstage at one of my concerts. I smiled, remembering the day as if it were yesterday. My thoughts were interrupted as I felt my phone vibrate and saw that it was a text from Lauren.

I sighed and ignored the text. I hadn't spoken to her since that day. As I looked at the picture of Selena and I, I realised that I wasn't happy with her like I used to be. It just wasn't the same anymore. Things haven't really been the same since the iheart radio awards.