Adrienna POV
1:12 AM . No I'm not sleeping . Instead I'm up thinking about these feelings & I'm lowkey not breathing . I don't wanna be a softy but it's you who is steady hurting me . I don't remember the last time I was happy . My DM is POPPIN . & im trying to get over his nonsense by texting them but they're just thirsty . When I lurk late at night I feel my heart break & my soul die . The fact that I'm all for you & you're just playing me is breaking my heart . I can't take this but I just can't end this . It hurts ..
I've been talking to Prince .. well texting . I get his fake I love yous all the time but I never fail to tell him I love him back . b/c I do . We've been talking for weeks now & our conversations are really getting dry .
I love him but he loves anyone who says he's "cute" . I just can't sleep w/ my heart feeling this way . 1:22 AM . I sing songs . Right now I'm singing "Right By Side" by Nicki Minaj
It all comes down to this
I miss your morning kiss
I won't lie, I'm feeling it
You don't know, I'm missing it
I'm so dumb, I must admit
It's too much to hold it in
I can't say no more than this
I just hope your heart hear me now
Gotta let you know how I'm feeling
You own my heart, he just renting
Don't turn away, pay attention
I'm pouring out my heart oh, boy
[Chorus:]
I-I, I'm not living life
I'm not living right
I'm not living if you're not by my side
Oooh-ohhh
I-I, I'm not living life
I'm not living right
I'm not living if you're not by my side
Oooh-ohhh
[Chris Brown]
Let's meet at our favourite spot
You know the one, right around the block
From the nice place, that you love to shop
Can you get away?
Care to sit down? Let's talk it out
One on one, without a crowd
I wanna hold your hand
Make you laugh again, I need to be near you
Gotta let you know how I'm feeling
You own my heart, and she just renting
Don't turn away, pay attention
I'm pouring out my heart girl
[Chorus (Nicki Minaj + Chris Brown)]
[Bridge:]
I can't eat I-I-I-I
I can't sleep I-I-I
What I need I-I-I
Is you right by my side
I can't eat I-I-I-I
I can't sleep I-I-I-I
What I need I-I-I-I
Is you right by my side
It ain't your spit game, it's your dick game
That got me walking 'round ready to wear your big chain
I only argue wit' 'em when the Lakers on
Other than that I'm getting my Marc Jacob's on
When my pussy game so cold that he always seem to come back
Cause he know that it'd be a wrap
When I'm riding it from the back
Wait, oh, let me see your phone
Cause all them bitches is ratchet
And now let me get in my truck
Cause all them bitches'll catch it
Wait wait wait, damn there I go again
I be trippin', I be flippin, I be so belligerent
Man this shit that we be fighting over so irrelevant
I don't even remember though I was probably hella bent (Let's go)
After that was over I couldn't help but cry . It all hurt so bad & I don't have anyone to turn to . I then started singing "Who Are You" by Fifth Harmony
Monday you sent me flowers
Tuesday made me feel stupid
Wednesday the world was ours
Thursday you didn't prove it
Friday fell back in love
Saturday we didn't talk
Sunday you said you needed space
Do you miss me? Am I crazy?
Am I losing hold of your love baby?
Either you want me or you don't
I need to know, I need to know
Who are you today?
Will you be the sun
Or the pouring rain?
Who are you tomorrow?
Will you make me smile
Or just bring me sorrow?
Who are you gonna be
When I'm lost and I'm scared?
Who are you gonna be
When there's nobody there?
Who are you today?
'Cause I am still the same
Monday you had my heart
Tuesday you had me screaming
Wednesday we didn't part
Thursday you didn't mean it
Friday I shook it off
Saturday you got it wrong
Sunday I said I needed space
Do you miss me? Am I crazy?
Am I losing hold of your love baby?
Either you want me or you don't
I need to know, I need to know
Who are you today?
Will you be the sun
Or the pouring rain?
Who are you tomorrow?
Will you make me smile
Or just bring me sorrow?
Who are you gonna be
When I'm lost and I'm scared?
Who are you gonna be
When there's nobody there?
Who are you today?
'Cause I am still the same
Who are you? Who are you?
It's so strange how the same thing
Can make you feel so right
And bring you so much pain.
It's so strange how the same face
Can make you love until it hurts.
Where do we go? (Where do we go?)
I need to know (I need to know)
Who are you today?
Will you be the sun
Or the pouring rain?
Who are you tomorrow?
Will you make me smile
Or just bring me sorrow?
Who are you gonna be
When I'm lost and I'm scared?
Who are you gonna be
When there's nobody there?
Who are you today?
'Cause I am still the same
The same
I just laid on the carpet in my room broken .
A/N: Just a filler chapter . sorry for mistakes . 1:30 AM😭😒😩
