Against The Rules (Clexa)

Chapter 19

Lexa's P.O.V

I drove in silence, I could tell James was uncomfortable but, I didn't care, all I could think about was Clarke, now and then James would begin to speak but then stop and the car would fill with silence again.when we arrived to the airport, i parked the car and began to walk into the building, I didn't bother to wait for James but before I stepped through the doors he grabbed my arm and spun me around

"Lexa, think about this, she's not worth it, can't you just agree with your parents and come back home" he said still holding to my arm, I gave him a stern look and he released me

"I will never make that stupid fucking deal with them, and I know you know something about Costia so spit it out or I'm going to get on that fucking plane and find out for myself" I didn't realize that I began shouting until I noticed the worried stares I got from people, James grabbed me and pulled me back into the car, once we both sat in the car I waited for James to begin speaking but it felt like forever until he did

"Your parents have people in your school watching you, they told your parents about Costia, they payed someone to crash into your car, and then they got a fake ambulance take her away, she made a deal with your parents" I was silent and in shock, James continued to speak "they got her a job in New York and gave her a lot of money, they knew that one day you would come back to them but they also know that having a gay kid would ruin their image"

"That's a bit fucking extreme, you do know I tried to fucking kill myself"

"We didn't know that you actually loved her, when I found out I felt like shit, I never agreed with it but, I can't lose my job, you know that" I began to cry, my face in my hands, james placed his hand on my back attempting to comfort me but it didn't work,

"Did Costia love me?" I don't know why I asked it but I did

"I don't know, I'm sorry"

"I need to know" I stepped out the car and made my way to buy my ticket, this time James did not follow or stop me. I bought my ticket which was in first class cause everything else was taken.

When I boarded the plane I took my seat, all I had on my was my phone and my debit card, luckly as I was in first class they gave me a pair of decent headphones, I pulled out my phone and put on the 1975 and played the song robbers. Through the whole trip I planed what I was going to say and do when I find Costia, but I couldn't stop thinking about Clarke, i wanted to text her, but not only was I terrified that the plane was going to crash if I did use my phone, but also, I had no fucking idea what I would say to her, the only words I can think of to say to her is sorry, but that's not good enough.

When the plane landed I got off the plane and called an uber, a black car pulled up and I got in, the whole trip was silent, I wanted to ask the guy to turn the radio on but i decided that the silence was good for me to focus. When we arrived at the office I got out the car and just stood there admiring the building. I looked at my phone, and realized that it was still on airplane mode, when I took it off it was filled with texts from Indra and Octavia, they were all going on about basket ball  shit I forgot' I didn't reply 'yeah I'm a dick, I know get over it.

I walked into the building and approached the desk, a blonde haird girl that was chewing gun, very loudly looked up at me "can I help you?"

"Um yeah I'm looking fo-" before I could finish I was cut off by someone dropping a folder and papers, I turned to see what had happened to see a very pretty girl with long light brown hair and was wearing black heels and a tight black skirt with a white button up shirt tucked in but with the top two buttons undone , I was confused to why she dropped her stuff until she spoke "Lexa?!??" It was Costia, she was here, alive, with brown hair. I forgot all the plans that I had previously made and I was a coward and turned around and walked out the door what am I doing that was such a stupid move I feel like a fucking dumb ass. I found some steps and I sat on them with my head in my hands, replaying what had just happened in my head over and over again.

I heard heels hitting against the concrete approach me, I looked up to see Costia, she had tears running down her cheeks, I stood up so we were inches apart, she was slightly taller than me due to her heels, she then spoke "we need to talk" I couldn't respond so instead I just nodded and followed her back into the office building.

Yeah I know, it's been forever, well I have just done 20 exam in the past few weeks so I didn't exactly have time to do much but revise 😂 But you should be glad to hear that I only have 6 left and then I'll have a lot of free time to write more. I'm sorry the chapters short, I kinda had to hide from my parents when writing this cause I really should be revising but I tried my best, please excuse the mistakes and I promise that as soon as have more time I wall update much quicker with much better chapter