Everything That You've Come To Expect (Milex au)

Chapter 10; Miracle Aligner

{ Alex's POV }

I walked out of the room, my heart pounding.

Oh my god.

Ohmygodohmygodohmygod I HAD SEX WITH MILES KANE, FUCK.

My whole body shook with anxiety.  I swear I need to go to the damn doctors for that shit. I walked down the stairs and grabbed my stuff quickly.

I need out.

Fuck, I need out, I need out, I need out right now.

I left the flat grabbing my cigs and tugging on my leather jacket. My heart was racing a million miles per hour and I've never had so much trouble breathing.

"FUCK!" I screamed into the morning air.

I practically ran all the way back to my flat, and once I was inside, I slammed the door, sliding down to the floor.

How could we have been so wreckless?

How could I have been so wreckless?

I loved him.

I wanted him, but I wanted to remember it. He was so heartbroken. At least, he sounded it.

And his breakdown? Would he be okay? I would have stayed, but I would have had my own breakdown.

I felt my throat burn, and tears brimmed my eyes.

Why couldn't my life be easy?

Why couldn't I just love who I wanted when I wanted... Why couldn't I just not maintain a relationship?

Why? Why? Why?

I closed my eyes, letting a tear slip as I leant my head back against the door.

I need to stop crying so much. What am I supposed to do now?

I pushed myself away from the door stumbling towards the kitchen.

I don't want to remember anything ever again.

I grabbed tons of alcohol. Pain killers...I need pain killers for this headache not alcohol.

What about both?

Yeah, yeah both will work.

I grab the alcohol and a bottle of pain killers grabbing about five....five...I can take up to ten in a day right?

I grab five more and swallow them down with alcohol.

After about ten minutes my vision is almost completely blurry.

I called miles, letting out a few desperate words as he picked up before everything turned black.

When I finally came to, I felt empty.

I was surrounded by blurry whiteness, and my hearing was slowly coming back.

I heard the calm beats of a heart monitor.

I blinked vigerously, attempting to regain my vision. 

I turned my head to the side, looking over and being scared as my eyes met those of the angry, worried, tear stained face of Miles Kane.

"Mi?" I whispered, my voice was hoarse, throat dry.

I felt awful.

His dark eyes never left mine as he grabbed the glass of water, shoving it in my hand, which he had been holding.

I brought it up to my lips, "Dont chug it or you'll vomit, you bastard." His tone scared me, it sounded angered yet depressed.

I took small sips, feeling the moisture return to my throat.