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     A week goes by and I continue sitting with Melody and her friends, Carly  and Gabbie.  They are really nice and I have some classes with them. I even talked to the guy a little and found out his name is Ethan. Although I get really nervous around him.

      I haven't really told anyone about my mom I just tell them that I live with my aunt and don't go into detail on how she died. I don't even think I'm ready to talk about her it's only been a month and I still cry myself to sleep every night.

   I don't know what to do at times.  I still feel the pain. I wish I could have saved her. I mean I still wake up feeling like she will be there to greet me. A new school has helped only a little. They all are  so nice. Especially Ethan I feel like he sees that I'm going through something. How I don't know, but ever since I met he made me feel okay.

   I keep thinking about the past week on the way to school. For some reason I actually want to go. Probably because I feel like it has been helping with the pain. I look out the window to see people riding  bikes and skateboarding to school. This place seems so perfect. How one place could be so nice and beautiful I will never. How ended up here is heartbreaking but, it could be the key to finding out who I'm suppose to be without my mom.

  " Kendall come out of the car" Aunt Chloe said. " Oh sorry I was just thinking" I say. " Are you okay I know things have been hard for you. I can hear crying from my room" she says. " Yeah things have been really hard on  me every morning I wake up ready to see her but, I never do and that's really hard  to deal with" I say. " I know we all miss her she was an amazing person and it wasn't your fault she knows that" she says. " I don't know" I say. " Kendall it wasn't now don't worry about you need to go to school we can more when you get home if you would like" she says. " That would be nice" I say as I get out of the car.

  I walk to my locker and start putting things away and getting ready for my next class, when I get a tap at my shoulder. I turn around to see Ethan. " Hey do you have the any notes for  Spanish class." he asks. "Yeah here" I say as I hand him some notes. " Why do you need them anyways" I ask. " I'm not doing so good in that class and you seem like your doing really well" he says. " I could help you study" I say. " That would be nice,  but when" he asks. " Is today after school okay" I ask. " Yeah" he  says. " Okay see you later I have to get to class" I say as  I walk away.

 I make it to class just before the bell rings. That was a close one. I can't even believe that just happened. I should probably call my aunt at lunch though to let her know not to pick me up at usual time.  I can't stop thinking about what happened. Why did he choose me anyways. I mean I do have a good grade in Spanish class but, there are other people he could have chosen. I decide to get back to work so, I don't get in trouble. 

   After I go through my first few classes I head to lunch. When I get there I sit down next Melody, Carly, and Gabbie. "Hey guys" I say. "Hey" they say. " How were your first classes" I ask. "Boring as usual" Melody says. " Same here " I say. " Do guys wanna come over to my house later "Gabbie asks. " Sure " Carly says. " Sure Sounds like fun" Melody says. "What about you Kendall" Gabbie asks. " I don't know I have to help Ethan study for a Spanish. Is it okay if I come a little later" I say a little nervous. "Uh sure and I didn't know you liked Ethan " Gabbie says. " I don't I'm just helping him with Spanish " I say. "Sure but, be careful Ethan tends to break girls hearts" Melody says. "Okay" I say as I continue to eat my lunch.

  The day goes by and can't stop thinking about Ethan. I mean I see how he acts around me but, what if he breaks my heart. I don't want it to go like that. I wonder what my mom would have thought of him. I don't know maybe she wouldn't like him. Who knows.  The last bell rings and I head to my locker. I grab my stuff and put it in my bag. I close my locker and make my way to the library where I'm suppose to meet Ethan. I think about what Melody said about him I know it's probably true, but I like him.  I open the door to the library and see him sitting at a table looking at a Spanish book and looking confused.

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