alexithymia || poems

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"there was this feeling in my chest. it felt giddy, but at the same time, nostalgic. nostalgic, but incredibly new. i am at a loss.

i have never felt this before.

this is bad. i cannot put this feeling into words.

those feelings? they are indescribable.
they are dangerous.

i could do nothing but hold myself in place, thinking and praying that, whatever this is, it better not be love."