"Hello?" The girl's voice, Making the colors on my face fade to grey. Gusto kong magmura, gusto ko siyang sabunutan, gusto ko saying sapakin, gusto kong malaman kung ano'ng nangyayari. First, yung number ni Ck sa pilipinas yung tinawagan ko. Second, Stella answered his phone. Lastly, where could they be? The pain on my chest is unbearable. Why am I suffering? What did I ever do to deserve this much pain? I felt my tears cascade down my cheeks.
"P-please give the phone to Ck." I sobbed. And I heard her say, "Ck, It's her again. You better tell her the truth this time." before giving Ck the phone.
"Olivia." He says my name. I sobbed even more, I covered my mouth, making my sobs and whining mumble over my hands.
"Ck. I want to hear from you. What's happening?" I asked. He paused. And finally voiced after moments.
"I'm-I'm sorry. I have to go. Bye." But I couldn't bear the whole thing.
I shouted, "Ck, wag mo ibababa!" My voice cracked. "What's going on with you? Can't you ever be strong for us? Sabi mo ayaw mo ng nangyayari? I will let you explain, I will let you tell me everything, wag lang mauulit na wala nanaman akong alam sa nangyayari sa'yo. Mag-usap tayo. Please." I wheezed. I hear Ck sigh.
"I don't want this to take anymore longer." He coughed. "Let's break up."
What? I felt my heart sink to my stomach. "Ck. You're joking or-or-or you're being forced to do this!" I laughed dryly.
"I'm getting tired. Just-just let things go. Okay?" He state almost comforting me.
"Ck. You can't break up with me. Why? Why are you doing this?" I asked crying.
"I just want to break-up with you. Maybe, I don't love you anymore. Don't ever call me again." He sighed before turning down the phone.
The cascading tears didn't cease falling. Both the rain and my tears poured and I had to let my memories play in my mind. I know that Ck didn't want this. I just know it. But what made me get disappointed the most is that, he didn't fight for us. I would try, I would try to fight for us but he gave up. He got nothing to spare. I can't even change his mind anymore and I want to believe that this is some of his act, but he got with it, he did it as is.
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My tuesday came. Two days passed. I had to go to school, wala parin akong nasasabihan sa nangyari. Wala rin akong magawa. Hindi rin ako makapagreply sa texts ni Days at Travs pati ni Red. Hindi rin ako makapagsalita ng maayos, baka kasi umiyak lang ako pag nagsalita ako. Few subjects came by, hindi ako nakakapagcooperate sa mga recitations o sa group activities. Nakatingin lang si Red at tuwing tinatawag ako ng mga professor namin, nagvo-volunteer siya na siya nalang daw ang sasagot, so I have to thank him for that. Without talking. Hanggang sa vacant na namin, I decided to go home kahit may kasunod pa akong mga klase. I headed towards the gate when he finally approached.
"Oli. Where are you going?" At sumabay siya sakin maglakad. Syempre, hindi ako sumagot. "Are you sick? You look sick." Ani Red. Yes, I'm so sick of Ck. I hate him so much. He's so stupid. "I want to beg for your respond but you seem tired. But if you're going home, I'll lead you." He forced a smile. "If you won't talk, It's fine. It's not like I'm not used to this. Just. Just let me give you company I guess." He smiled.
We walked. Dire-diretso. I could be out of my mind but I don't want to go home.
"You're not going home. You just want to walk. I get it. It's okay. I'll go with you. But I have a car, if you change your mind of walking, we can go somewhere." He smiled again. Pero tulala lang ako. "Okay." Sagot niya din sa sarili niya. "I could've guessed what happened." He frowned. Ilang minuto din siyang naglakad kasama ko hanggang sa nakatagpo ako ng upuan dahil dumiretso kami sa public park at napagod na din ako. Maraming magjo-jowang naglalakad past us pero madalas sa mga babae, nakatingin kay Red. "You might not talk but you can cry." He whispered under his breath.
